Manga online

I started reading manga online about 3 years back when I started using celcom broadband. before that my manga access is by buying kreko, arena komik and manga books published by Comics House and Tora Aman. I first read manga online at Onemanga and then switch to Mangafox and some other websites. The good things about manga online are they are free, there are more options and readers have the privilege which to read and you need not to go to shop and then find places to locate your books and magazines. Moreover, there are updated. The bad thing is when the manga got licensed, the manga will be pulled off from the website. But still you still can browse through the net and if you are lucky you can find it elsewhere. Before this, I noticed there are debates whether manga online is legal or not, about the copyright, piracy bla bla bla, but i don't go deep into it.

However this morning when I want to take my drugs ( well, manga that is), I found something is wrong with the website. this is how mangafox appears. i tried several times, but still no access.

Then i tried onemanga, the website is still alive but there is message appears

"It pains me to announce that this is the last week of manga reading on One Manga (!!). Manga publishers have recently changed their stance on manga scanlations and made it clear that they no longer approve of it. We have decided to abide by their wishes, and remove all manga content (regardless of licensing status) from the site. The removal of content will happen gradually (so you can at least finish some of the outstanding reading you have), but we expect all content to be gone by early next week (RIP OM July '10).

So what next? We're not really sure at this point, but we have some ideas we would like to try out. Until then, the One Manga forums will remain active and we encourage all of you to continue using them. OMF has developed into a great community and it would be a shame to see that disappear.

Regardless of whether you stay with us or not, on behalf of the One Manga team, I would like to thank you all for your unwavering support over the years. Through the ups and downs you have stuck with us, and that is what kept us going.

As a certain Porky was fond of saying... That's all folks!

Time for me to go lay down and let this all sink in.

- Zabi"

I was like IS IT FOR REAL?? It was like a death penalty to me. Good thing mangatraders is still alive. Seems like i will have to download top mangas that i haven't read. Maybe i will switch back to Kreko and Arena komik (which cost me at least RM5 each) for some time until this chaos will get better (hopefully) and if i were to buy english manga at borders it costs me at least RM40 each!!. Oh my, i really need these drugs (mangas) or i will get really really really depressed....................................
Damn it! Damn it! publisher sucks!! Grrrr (gritting teeth)

Oh My 3X

I was just watching a must see which also a mustn't see Korean movie.. Oh my gosh. the storyline is so beautiful beyond words, it is so twisted.. I myself don't know which side should i be. the bad thing is, too many unneeded scenes. i must say if one wants to watch this movie you HAVE to have a very very high tolerance towards something that is so taboo in your life. You may feel disgust at the middle of the story and towards the end you will feel sad, to me at least.. It is very recommended to read the synopsis first, if you think you can endure, just go ahead.. Oh my gosh, Tikah, what movie are you giving me???

Title: A Frozen Flower
Synopsis: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/A_Frozen_Flower

boycott, motherland

1) BoycottToday is a month and a day after humanitarian aid ship, Mavi Marmara and her six vessels were attacked by the rogue state, Israel which killed at least 9 and injured many others. Israel received spontaneous condemnation from the world except from her very close ally, U.S. Israel is fast in diverting public opinion by alleging the ship as a hate ship, not a love ship. As it is hard to digest by logic, Israel insisted to run her own investigation on her own crime but nothing is impossible since Israel is always above the law. The Jewish state seems invincible because the economy, politic and media are controlled by them. as Mahathir once said, "Jews rule world by proxy". Thus as a human who wants justice, who refuses to let my money to be used in killing and hurting others, i would like to call again and again to boycott products from Israel and from companies who support them. I admit that their products quality is so good and no other products could surpass theirs yet, but we won't die if we don't buy them but people will die if we do. And I really hope the boycott is not temporary but long lasting. Please remember the faces of those who are dying in Gaza when you feel the urge to buy the products. They need us..


2) Motherland

I don't know whether I'm the right person to say this. Whether I'm qualified enough to speak about it. I am a daughter of an immigrant and a local couple. I am classified by constitution as Malay who is Muslim and practice Malay adat. I'm not good in politic. Hell i will avoid to discuss about it. But even so, I still feel sad, I feel threatened. I feel that in no time this land will no longer be ours, the land will be snatched from us right in front of our eyes. I'm not sure who the snatchers would be, maybe the people from inside, maybe from outside. Who knows. Geographically,in south east Asia, there are only 3 countries where the majority are Muslims, namely Malaysia, Indonesia and Brunei. But we are not in a good term with our neighbors. For me it's important if we could maintain this because Muslim minority in all over the world are suppressed and I feel lucky I could practice what I believe freely without fear in this country. But who knows will this be the same in the future?
Call me pessimistic, call me negative, but I fear that this country will end up like Palestine if we keep on sleeping. I know Malaysia is not part of the promised land but still, the land is precious to us.
If that happen, will i blame the evil snatcher?
No, i will blame the weak us, the sleeping us, the lazy us. The us that like to fight each other for power and money. The us that like to bribe and be bribed. The us who fail to recognize who to fight and who to befriend. The us who cannot walk without walking stick. The us who cannot stand without somebody to pull. The us who cannot move forward without being pushed. I hope I can break free from the curse that entangle us..

Lirik Anak Kecil Main Api (Versi Lama)

Anak kecil main api
Terbakar hatinya yang sepi
Air mata darah bercampur keringat
Bumi dipijak milik orang

Nenek moyang kaya-raya
Tergadai seluruh harta benda
Akibat sengketa sesamalah kita
Cinta lenyap di arus zaman

Indahnya bumi kita ini
Warisan berkurun lamanya
Hasil mengalir ke tangan yang lain
Peribumi merintih sendiri

Masa depan sungguh kelam
Kan lenyap peristiwa semalam
Tertutuplah hati terkunci mati
Maruah peribadi dah hilang

Kini kita cuma tinggal kuasa
Yang akan menentukan bangsa
Bersatulah hati bersama berbakti
Pulih kembali harga diri

Kita sudah tiada masa
Majulah dengan maha perkasa
Janganlah terlalai teruskan usaha
Melayu kan gagah di nusantara
Melayu kan gagah di nusantara
Melayu kan gagah di nusantara

Murdered kitten

Last night, after feeding my cats and kittens, and watch over them when they litter, i brought all the kittens to my brother's bedroom. They run, they cuddle each other and play happily. then when it's about midnight, i want to go to my bedroom. usually, i will locked them in the basket since the cage is outside the house and I'm afraid they will feel cold. but last night, i didn't since they were sleeping on the floor together with their mothers. i close the door and take a 8 months male cat named Kuning to sleep with me and left the rest in the room since my mum is sleeping there too. and then i suddenly wake up because i thought it's already morning, i open the window of my bedroom so that Kuning can go outside if he wants to. then i continue to sleep. i woke up back when i heard cats fighting in my bedroom. i saw a tomcat is inside my room and i chased him out. suddenly, i felt the urge to check on my kittens. i was seriously in shock when i saw blood under my brother's bed. i screamed calling my mother to come. At that time i only saw 2 of my kitten lying in flood of blood. the blood was dried already. i looked around looking the other three. my mum has started crying while my heart was throbbing looking for them. first i only found one behind the door, then one on the treadmill and another one in the kitchen's cabinet. i felt so relieved. my mum asked me which has died. when i said Gapi and Capang my mum was wailing because Gapi is biggest and the 2nd cutest. my mum then lift the died kitten and put them in the plastic and i put the plastic inside the cage. i then washed the bloody room and put the rest of the kitten in my bedroom. they were in fact sleeping next to me as i wrote this.

when i googling about male cat kill kitten, i found that actually the male will smell the scent of the kitten, if the kitten is not his offspring, the cat will kill them to prevent the offspring of another male to be arisen. moreover, if the kitten is killed, the mother will have no kitten to take care of and thus the female will enter into heat phase and start mating. this will give chance to the male to mate the female and keep his line of gene. how does the male cat kill, they will bite the nape of neck of the kitten and violently shake them. this will break the neck bone of the kitten and as the result, the kitten die.

i really regretted that i didn't take the kitten which were suckling at that time from their mother and locked them up, or at least bring them to my room so that i can watch over them the whole night. i finally realized why cat give birth to several kittens at a time and can get pregnant up to 3 times per year. it is because their lifespan is actually short especially kitten and there is so much risks for them to grow where they may become prey of another male cat, they may become subjected to poisons, and may be infected with illnesses. Alas, they were dead already. if i can rewind the time, i will fix the situation, but i can't. just wait if i ever catch the evil tomcat, seriously i will beat him and throw him away from my house, may be at KT town.

Ujian

Baru-baru ini aku ditimpa ujian dari Ilahi. Sungguh aku kelu dan terkedu, tapi aku cuba gagahkan diri, cuba menahan air mata dari membasahi pipi. Namun segagah-gagah aku cuba berdiri, hatiku tak mahu menyepi, terus membisik-bisik, berdesir-desir membuat aku merasa gundah di hati. Aku sebenarnya sudah puas, sudah rentan diuji begini. Namun aku masih mahu cuba menyelami hikmah di sebalik yang terjadi. Aku cuba mencari punca, cuba mencari sebab mengapa aku diuji.

Mungkin Allah masih menyayangi, mungkin banyak yang perlu dibaiki, banyak yang perlu diubati. Aku akui, mungkin aku terlalu ikuatkan duniawi. apa yang kumahu, semua kan kuperolehi. Namun, mungkinku alpa, jadi Allah mahu kusedari, hidup di dunia bukanlah hakiki.

"Experience is the best teacher".
Selagi kita tak mengalaminya sendiri, kita takkan menghargai, kita takkan memahami. Bukan tidak pernah ku ketahui, sebelum ni banyak sudah yang terjadi. Namun, ku hanya sekadar mampu mendengar, hanya mampu bersimpati. Tapi pabila kita sendiri mengalami, baruku tahu, betapa perit yang perlu ditempuhi. Tapi, selain denau yang harus kulangkahi, aku juga peroleh pengajaran yang takkan kulupa sampai mati.

Sabar dan Redha
Hidup takkan sepi dari diuji. Satu demi satu harus kita lalui. Namun, aku tahu dan percaya, DIA menguji hambaNYA dengan ujian yang pasti mampu dihadapi, untuk melihat seteguh mana iman di hati. Jadi, untuk menerima ganjaran dan kasih dari Ilahi, sabar dan redha harus dimiliki. Usah dikeluh usah dirintih lagi, sungguh Allah sentiasa disisi.

Muhasabah
Kadangkala, musibah diberi untuk diteliti. Adakah kita masih di landasan yang hak, atau sudah tersimpang jauh dari Ilahi. Jika kita perhati dan muhasabah kembali, kita pasti dapat jawapan yang dicari. Maka dapatlah kita memperbaiki diri dan tidak mengulanginya kembali.

Masih sayang
Di dunia serba moden ini, kadangkala kita terlalu busy, hinggakan kita jauh dari Ilahi. Jadi ditimpakanNYA ujian berkali-kali, menyedarkan kita, pada siapa harus ku taruh harapan, ku pinta sokongan. Maknanya Allah sayangkan kita, tidak mahu kita terus tenggelam dengan noda.

Sesuai dengan diri
Nilai harta berbeza-beza untuk setiap insani. Jika Allah mahu menguji, sudah pasti berdasarkan kepentingan harta dimiliki. Jadi usah dipertikai lagi mengapa aku diuji seberat ini.

Hanyalah pinjaman
Kecewa dirasa pabila harta lesap dari mata.Rasa tak keruan tidak terhingga. Sudah-sudahlah, itu sebenarnya bukan milik kita. Ianya hanyalah pinjaman semata dari yang ESA. Jadi, janganlah terlalu berputih mata, bermuram durja. Tuan empunya hanya meminjam sahaja, tiba masa kita pulangkanlah semula.

Sedari kecil sudah kuterapkan kata-kata ini:
" jika kau rasakan masalahmu terlalu berat, sesungguhnya masih ada insan yang masalahnya berkali ganda lagi berat" - Kak Irma
"Apa yang terbaik pada pandangan kita tak sebenarnya baik pada pandangan Allah"

Dari majalah mingguan wanita
"setelah berlapar ada kenyang, setelah haus ada kepuasan, setelah berjaga malam ada tidur nyenyak, dan setelah sakit ada kesembuhan.
Setiap yang hilang ada pengganti, dalam kesulitan ada kemudahan, setiap kegelapan ada terang benderang, dan setiap pengorbanan ada ganjarannya. Hanya masa yang menentukan kerana Allah mahu menguji tahap kesabaran dan keimanan kita"

See, duhai hati, sesungguhnya jadi Muslim itu tidak rugi. Walau setajam mana jalanan berduri harus dilalui, percayalah Allah sentiasa memerhati dan sentiasa di sisi. Jika iman tebal di jiwa, insyaAllah ada ganjaran untuk kita.

Long hand

Long hand or in Malay panjang tangan is a simpulan bahasa for those who like to take other people's things without the owner's permission which also known as pencuri. mereka ni don't care about time when to curi barang. anytime, anywhere they standby all the time.. they also don't care whether the owner will sembahyang hajat or bace yasin or berdoa to the Almighty so that the pencuri will get the balasan later. "so what?" is what the pencuri would say. if only Allah's law is enforced, maybe they won't steal any other orang punye barang anymore because they have serik already since their hands are already cut off.

why i write about this culprit? because my sweetheart, DELL 11z purplish color together with his(his?) new friends, nokia and ZTE modem have been kidnapped by the pencuri. Owh i so pity them. It's okay, maybe our jodoh is meant only for almost a month. I have to let you go because even though i love you all with all my heart, you are only harta dunia, anytime i can find those similar with you. Don't be sad okay.. And for the pencuri, mujurla I'm Muslim, which i believe in qada n qadar, angel of Atid n Raqib, heaven n hell, and prayer of org dianiaya will be granted. So, we may not confront each other in this worldly world, so we deal in the hereafter jela. wait for me at day of mizan okay. ^3^ muah..

What i learn today

Life is not easy. You interact with people and you try to live to the fullest, without neglecting the principles of life that you believe. however when dealing with people, you never know when you strive to live in your ideal life, you hurt people without knowing and people hold grudge unto you and when you have to face the reality, people actually hate you. You try to limit the interaction as little as possible but as impossible as it sounds, you could never escape.

Thus what i learn and what i can conclude , in interacting with people:

1. Never ever think positive, those people actually hate you
   
2. Never assume, as assumption is very dangerous
3. When you have problem with certain people, settle the problem, never keep it
4. Never blame, never attack, ask first
   
5. Never post your frustration on newspaper, social network or whatever, better deal personally with the people first, maybe that person has the reason.
   
6. Never listen from one side, as the other side might have different stories
7. When people act differently from your logic, find out the reason
8. Don't spread out stories before you figure out the real situation
9. If you want to advice, never use harsh word even if you think that person is at fault.
   
10. When you think you are at the right side, never forget the opposite party also think the same thing
11. When people did some mistake in the past, or when people did something that annoy you, never use it back to judge or even attack that person. you never know, whether that person realize that he/she has done the mistake, sometimes, you yourself see things in a wrong way
    
12. Never use intermediaries in solving problems, sentences may be interpreted differently if other people say them. better you yourself convey the message
13. apologize and forgive even if you think you are at the right side. this also apply to the outsiders
14. Be open and welcome critics

There are actually many things that i learn today. All of these come from the real story. I directed this to myself and also to the others. I admit I made mistake and I hope others will do the same things. You never know when will the same problem strike you. I really really appreciate it if those who have problems with me before, present or in the future come and discuss personally with me. InsyaAllah, with open heart, I will try to accept. but one thing for sure, I do my best and hope for the best in everything I do. Not only the best for me, but for others too.