voices in my head

New phase

2011-08-21T22:53:00.004+08:00

Hai hai hai.. lama sungguh tak update blog. rase malas sungguh. tp demi kemaslahatan blog, aku cuba juga mencoret berbaris kata terutamanya tentang fasa baru dalam hidup iaitu fasa bekerja. sume manusia kene keje, kalau tak keje macam mane nak hidup tanpa menyusahkan orang macam mat-mat and minah-minah meleis di luar sana.

pada 1 ogos 2011, aku dan rakan-rakan telah melapor diri ke Jabatan Kesihatan Negeri Terengganu dan telah ditemptkan di HSNZ Kuala Terengganu, dalam 20 minit dari rumah. tapi disebabkan kesesakan di waktu pagi, perjalanan mengambil masa hampir 30 - 40 minit ke tempat kerja. di HSNZ, aku dilokasikan di jabatan pesakit dalam (in-patient department) di mana sebulan pertama aku perlu bertugas di satellite pharmacy tingkat empat.

pengalaman bekerja setakat ini... Hmm, agak susah nak digambarkan. well, mula-mula kerje ni terasa bebalnya diri ini. ini tak tak tau, itu tak tau. tak confident, takut buat salah, takut kene marah sume ade. bercampur-baur. tapi, nak taknak, hidup mesti diteruskan, setahun latihan ni mesti disempurnakan!! get a grip Amalina!!

minggu pertama, aku ditugaskan untuk filling. Pagi-pagi, aku pegi tolong PPF filling UOD. Waktu ni barulah faham apa yang madam rohani duk cite2 bagi ikut frequency bla2. pastu, filling untuk UOU. Pastu tunggu precription dari patient dari kecemasan dan yang discharge dari ward.

Minggu kedua, aku diajar screening dan menguruskan dangerous drugs (DD). aku start screening last day minggu pertama. Mak datuk, punyela slow macam siput. tak tau nak tengok mana dulu, blurla. tapi takpe, start slow.. in fact sekarang ni lepas screen pun aku mintak senior tolong cekkan before bagi ppf untuk buat label. waktu screening ni ade dua bende kene tengok, ubat yang baru nak prescribe dan ubat yang nak disambung. yang penting waktu ni adalah, dose, duration, polypharmacy, renal function bla-bla.

pasal DD, hari indent DD adalah ahad dan rabu. hari pertama memang kusut la. dengan buku indent DD yang banyak dari ward yang banyak, mak aii.. sampai petang tak siap2. proses untuk indent DD: cek penggunaan dalam ward, betul ke tak, kalau dah betul baru kite supply mengikut maksmum stok. setiap kali keluarkan DD untuk satu-satu ward kene catit baki yang tinggal, supaya kalau ade shot senang nak trace. then print receipt, dah siap, panggil la nurse2 dari ward tersebut. kalau ade salah rekod, better bagitau cepat2, supaya nurse cepat2 betulkan and keje kite pun siap cepat, pastu da settle sume, rekod pulak dalam buku DD farmasi.. tadi berjaya siapkan indent DD pukul 3, kire okayla.

setakat ni itu je yang aku baru buat. pasal dispensing, ade isu sikit. aku start dispensing hari kedua, sebab ppf suruh dispense. so aku pun dispensela. tapi actually boss aku tak kasi dispense lagi. so aku stop dispense. pastu aku pegi satellite tingkat tujuh, senior suruh dispense. pastu bile boss aku tau aku dispense, die suruh jangan dispense. Aih.. pening aku.. Haha.

okay, sebagai extra, nak gtau care nk calculate dose syrup untuk pead.

tanya berat patient
cek dose kat frank shann
calculate berapa ml nk suro patient amek
nk supply berapa? ml tadi darab frequency and duration

contoh:

berat patient 13kg
dose untuk pcm 15mg/kg 4H, 13 x 15 = 195mg.
preparation syrup pcm: 120mg/5ml, so (195mg/120mg) x 5 ml = 8.13 ml
contoh 195 mg tds x 1/52, so 8.13 x 3 x 7 = 170 ml, satu botol kalau tak silap 60 ml, so 3 botol la..

camtula lebih kurang. mula-mula dah lupa camne nak kira, then tanya PPF. terimas!!

p/s: klaula ade acad review, instead of mansuhkan midsem exam, better abolish community attachment yang buat setiap tahun tu ganti ngan hospital attachment. seminggu kat setiap department pun jadilah!!

Fantastic Children

2011-06-24T21:11:00.006+08:00

Minggu lepas aku dan rakan2 pergi ke UIA kuantan untuk settlekan clearance. Alang-alang pergi Kuantan singgah la sekejap kat kedai buku Popular kat berjaya Megamall. Aku pun belek2 vcd anime lat situ, terpandangla vcd Fantastic Children. Dah lama gak aku nak cari cerita ni, sempat tengok sekejap je kat animax dulu, aku pun belila satu.

Sampai je Terengganu, aku terus habiskan 2 hari 2 malam melayan cerita anime 26 episod ni. memang terbaiklah.

Fantastic children ni adalah cerita sains fiksyen megisahkan sekumpulan budak-budak berambut putih bermata biru yang sebenarnya adalah saintis-saintis dari planet lain yang muncul di bumi dari tahun 1948 hinggalah tahun 2012. Sepanjang diorang berada di bumi, jejak-jejak budak-budak ni banyak dicatat dalam sejarah dan diorang sentiasa muncul berupa budak-budak berumur 11 tahun sehinggakan seorang saintis terkenal pada zaman tu hampir gila apabila dia dapat menjejak kewujudan mereka ni. Saintis tersebut menggelar mereka befort children.

Befort Children

Budak-budak ni muncul di bumi membawa misi penting iaitu untuk mencari puteri planet mereka yang bernama Tina. Sepanjang hampir 5 abad, mereka tak berjaya menemui Tina tepat pada waktunya, tapi akhirnya pada tahun 2012 misi mereka tercapai dengan bantuan seorang budak lelaki bernama Tohma. Waktu ni Tina dikenali sebagai Helga.

Tina, Tohma, Helga

konsep penting yang dibawa dalam anime ni adalah reincarnation di mana apabila seseorang mati roh tersebut akan dihidupkan dalam badan yang lain dalam kehidupan akan datang dan memori kehidupan lepas selalunya hilang. Sebab tu bukan senang nak cari Tina disebabkan sepanjang 5 abad pengembaraan budak-budak ni, roh Tina selalu bertukar-tukar badan. Clue yang ada hanyalah gambar yang selalu Tina lukis iaitu bulan dan pemandangan di planet asal beliau. Malah Tina pun tak tahu kenapa dia selalu lukis benda yang sama. Sepanjang 500 tahun kat bumi, budak-budak ni dah reincarnate beberapa kali tapi memori diorang dapat dikekalkan menggunakan rod memori yang diorang cipta.

lukisan Tina

Konflik dalam cerita ni,
1. ayah Tina adalah raja di planet asal, pastu adik die dengki so die nak rampas takhta
2. saintis-saintis di planet asal menkaji pasal life after death, pastu boleh cari roh yang dah mati dan masukkan ke dalam badan palsu, so kira macam fake reincarnation
3. Tina mati sebab diserang adik raja, so raja suruh saintis hidupkan semula Tina guna fake reincarnation. tapi badan tina jadi tak stabil, dan membahayakan planet. sebab tu tina di hantar ke bumi, supaya di bangkitkan semula guna badan yang asli.
4. adik raja di expel dari planet tersebut dan dia ke bumi nak cari Tina supaya boleh jadi senjata untuk ambil alih takhta

Bagi aku cerita ni memang awesome. Yang paling aku suka dalam cerita ni adalah lagu dia, memang best. Pastu pulak macam mana diorang kaitkan kisah-kisah diorang sepanjang 500 tahun kat bumi dan kehidupan diorang kat planet asal. Ada jugak yang sedih di mana ada sepasang kekasih dalam kumpulan saintis tersebut terpaksa berpisah selama-lamanya walaupun sepatutnya kat planet asal diorang lagi seminggu je diorang nak bertunang sebelum terjadinya tragedi.

Lukisan dia memang agak so-so. tapi bagi aku kalau lukisan tak lawa tapi cite best aku tak kesah..

File sharing

2011-06-15T23:33:00.005+08:00

mood: RAGEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!
(takde tapisan, mungkin mengandungi bahasa2 kasar di bawah)

aku merupakan pembaca tegar manga. tapi tak semua manga ade jual kat kedai buku, so untuk mendapatkan bahan bacaan ni, aku terpaksa mendownload dari scanlator yang mengupload manga-manga tersebut di filesharing websites. antara website yang aku selalu download file adalah mediafire, megaupload, 4shared, sendspace dan lain2.

hari ni, macam biase, aku pun nk download manga fantastic children dari megaupload, tapi tak boleh bukak, kebetulan beberapa hari lepas aku terbaca artikel pasal skmm nk block file sharing websites nih. so untuk mnconfirmkan perkara ni aku pun google, rupa2nye mmg sah skmm da suro isp block websites2 tersebut.

cis bedebah!! benda2 macam ni memang buat aku hangin. wey!! aku bayar la internet ni, suka hati akula nak bukak website ape pun! file sharing je pun!! bebal betul la..

dan bukan aku sorang je yang hangin.. selain pengipas gomen, aku yakin most of internet users must be angry. yelah, ingat bayar bil internet ni nak main fesbuk je ke.. ini adalah fesbuk grup yang bengang dengan tindakan skmm nih:

1M Malaysians Don't Want SKMM Block File Sharing Website

dan disebabkan bengang dengan tindakan yang mencabul kebebasan berinternet ni, hackers yang menggelarkan diri diorang sebagai Anonymous telah menghantar warning untuk menggodam website-website gomen ni. diorang umumkan akan menggodam hari ni. operation ni dinamakan Operation Malaysia. contoh website yang dah digodam: sabahtourism.

wahai gomen, tolonglah sibukkan diri uruskan kes video porno, harga petrol, harga barang runcit, simbah asid, isu perkauman, mati mengejut kat bangunan sprm, kes buang anak, kazakhtan dan lain2 kes yang selesai-selesai lagi tu. please leave us alone. jangan menyusahkan orang lagi boleh tak!!! mentang2 baru lepas melawat china, janganlah sampai internet blocking pun nk tiru china jugak!! socai betulla!!!!

R-day, S-day

2011-05-04T18:54:00.007+08:00

Waktu yg mendebarkan datang lagi. Seperti sem2 sebelum ni, 2-3 hari sebelum R-day @ result day, aku mmg da tak senang duduk, terngiang-ngiang, terbayang-bayang jawapan yang aku jawab mase final exam dulu. Waktu ni la duk risau lulus ke gagal ke. Tapi sem ni la paling kritikal sebab sem ni sem terakhir. Kalaula tersangkut sem yang paling last ni, payahnyelah. So sejak semalam aku da meraung-raung menjerit sorang-sorang nak hilangkan nervous, sampai naik rimas mak aku tengok. Jenuh mak aku cakap, ina toksah risaula.. lulus nye. sorila mak, nak dekat Hari Ibu ni, nnt ina blanja na..

Alhamdullillah tepat kul 5 petang lebih cket, setelah penat mengklik reload banyak5 kali, muncul jugak akhirnye result slip di desktop aku. Alhamdulillah pass sume. Aku tak heran dah aku dapat A+ ke, C- ke yang penting aku lulus!! Maka dapatla aku graduate dengan amannye. Pasal apa aku tak heran da, salah 1 sebabnye cgpa terakher ni hanya penting buat bakal2 penerima pharmaniaga award. Tahniah la kat sapa2 yg dapat award tu.. Korang memang excellent lah!!

Oleh sebab dengan meraung dan menjerit-jerit tak dapat mengurangkan nervous aku, aku cuba menyebokkan diri di hari R-day ini. So malam tadi, aku dan mak aku pergi ke giant untuk membeli persiapan menyambut S-day @ Sushi day..

So pukul 11 tadi aku pun mulakan projek S-day nih.
Apakah bahan-bahannya?

Untuk nasi
1) beras jepun 2 cup
2) cuka beras 4 sudu besar
3) gula 4 sudu besar .. aku guna gula stevia, kurang kalori cket, 2 sudu besar
4) garam 1 1/2 sudu teh

Untuk inti sushi
1) crab meat
2) hot dog
3) telur dadar
4) serunding

lain-lain:
1) seaweed

Prosedur:

1) Tanak nasi dulu.. mula2 aku buat nisbah 1:1 so 2 cup beras 2 cup air. tapi nasi mentah, so aku tambah 2 lagi cup air.. terlembik la plak.. so mengikut kata expert aka adek aku, nisbah air 1 cup beras 1 1/4 or 1 1/3 cup air

2) Sementare menanak nasi, gaulkan cuka beras, gula dan garam dalam mangkuk lain. kalau gula dan garam susah sangat nak larut, tambah cket air panas.

3) Rebus dulu crab meat and hot dog dan masak telur dadar

4) Lepas nasi da masak, gaulkan dengan campuran cuka, dan garam sampai sebati.. rasa la dulu.. biar sejuk

5) Pastu, hamparkan bamboo mat, hamparkan seaweed atas bamboo mat

6) Amek nasi tadi, lenyek2 atas seaweed, cover seaweed tadi. pastu letak la bahan2 inti atas nasi yang dah dilenyek rata tadi.

7) Pastu ape lagi, gulung la bamboo mat tersebut

8) Gulungan sushi kemudiannye di potong. recommended gune pisau yang tajam. senang cket nak potong. sapu pisau dengan cuka, biar nasi tak melekat kat pisau tersebut.

9) Pastu hidang n makan!!

Disebabkan ade nasi yang lebih.. tangan ni rase menggatal nak buat onigiri. Ape itu onigiri? onigiri ni nasi kepal.. simple je aku buat.

1) Basuh tangan dulu besih3 n keringkan

2) Tabur garam atas tapak tangan kiri, klu kidal tangan kanan la..

3) Amek nasi tadi, leperkan atas tapak tangan tadi, amek la inti ape2 pun. aku letak crab meat cket, hot dog cket, telur cket, mayonese cket atas nasi

4) Pastu tambah nasi letak atas inti tadi n kepal2 la dengan kedua2 belah tangan sampai jadi bentuk onigiri.

5) Pastu letak la seaweed kat tapak nasi kepal tadi

6) pastu makanla dengan gembiranya.

Wahaha... first time buat, banyak la celanye, comot lak tu. tapi yang penting puas hati n dapat hilangkan nervous tunggu result.. bile makan je, otometik aku sebut oishiii~~~ (sedap~~~)

Another animal abuse

2011-03-06T10:28:00.005+08:00

Last time Malaysians were angry with a video showing a dog abused by 2 abusers and until now their whereabouts are unknown.

But psychopaths are everywhere. This time it was two kitten which were tortured with umbrella and being kicked and finally murdered. the action was caught by cctv and was uploaded in internet. in the video, the kitten's mother went to rescue the first kitten but was chased away. the abuser went to the second kitten and again the kitten's mother went to get the kitten but it was hopeless. Jeez, i thought only israel who do that

As usual, who wont be angry seeing how helpless the kitten were while being tortured and murdered, so the internet army has hunted this bastard (oops sorry, harsh word there). They found out the murderer is a chinese she-male (tomboy) living in serdang. i wonder why is it whenever there is abuse case, the Chinese is the perpetrator? maid abuse, dog abuse and now cat abuse? Am i too generalizing here?

Nah anyway, since she was caught red-handed, today she will be in press conference. heard that she want to apologize in public. what, do you think people will let you go just like by just apologizing? Hope she will get punishment for her doing. May she rot in hell forever.

For the brave of heart:
link to the video-> here
pictures-> here

Not for those who has heart problem.

Temuduga SPA: My Story

2011-03-04T19:02:00.008+08:00

Pada 25 Februari 2011 yakni Jumaat lepas, aku telah menghadiri sesi temuduga oleh Pegawai SPA sebagai syarat sebelum ditawarkan bekerja.

Some of my friends already posted their experience. so after pending about a week, i want to tell about my story pulak. Frankly speaking i didn't study much for the interview. two days before the day of the interview, i was busy watching House from season 6 until season 7. i felt a bit guilty actually. i just selak2 government website, asked my friends who had been interviewed and discussed with them.

i woke up early and went early to the place of the interview. but unfortunate thing happened even before i enter the building. you know how it's hard for me to find shoes because of my foot size (saiz 4 hampir tak ade ye.. hampir tak ade di kedai-kedai kasut di Malaysia). so i just used my old shoes which i seldom use. the minute i walk out from my car, aku rase ade bende tak kena dengan kasut aku ni. rupa-rupanya tapak kasut hampir-hampir terpisah dari kasut tersebut. shit, why now??? hatiku meronta-ronta. Rapuh sungguh kasut cap Verne nih. Nah, berserah jelah. Ku pasrah..

dengan berhati-hati, aku melangkah ke lif dan tiba di tingkat 5 bangunan SPA. Di situ aku dan rakan berkumpul sebelum dipanggil ke bilik temuduga. kami berbincang sesama kami. Satu demi satu rakan-rakan dipanggil. Yang baru keluar ditalu-talu dengan soalan-soalan. Aku pun dengan hati yang berdegup-degup menunggu giliranku sambil membace apa-ape yang patut.

Dalam pukul 10.30, tiba giliranku untuk ditemuduga. selepas memberi salam kepada penemuduga aku pun duduklah dengan muka yang cuak di depan penemuduga tersebut.

P.J: Kamu mesti dah tanya kawan-kawan yang dah kena temuduga sebelum ni dan dah sedia dengan jawapan sekali kan? Okay cuba ceritakan satu

okay aku blur sebenarnya waktu ni dan entah kenapa ada clinical je dalam otak aku. aku pun cakap je la pasal kaunseling insulin pen. at that time dengan suara terketar-ketar aku pun merepek-repek pasal storage, administration and side effects of insulin, how to counter hypoglycemia bla-bla. i was looking at their faces as i was talking and i can see they looked bored. i know i messed up. i was like crap! what i just blurted out!! seperti diduga aku pun ditegur panjang lebar oleh penemuduga. aku pun mengangguk-anggukkan kepala tanda faham. Sebenarnya waktu ni aku pulak yang boring. Hehe..

P.J: Okay ceritakan tentang keluarga kamu

Aku menceritakan tentang pekerjaan abah dan umi, asal-usul mereka, keadaan keluarga, kediaman dulu dan sekarang, adik perempuan yang belajar di Jordan dan adik bongsu yang Down Syndrome dan menghidap masalah mental dan epilepsi dan keadaannya sekarang. waktu ni aku dapat rasakan yang suara aku kembali normal dan tak terketar-ketar. Aku mula menjawab secara santai dan teratur. Aku mengiyakan bila ditanya aku memilih negeri pilihan kerana nak menolong keluarga menjaga Cai.

P.M: Ubat apa yang adik kamu ambil sekarang? Ashaari Malina ni lelaki ke perempuan? (common question, Cai ni lelaki, Malina tu nama keluarga)

aku menjawab tablet Epilim dan tablet Risperidone. Ketika ini, aku ditanya lagi tentang dos epilim and pernahkah adik aku undergo TDM. Aku jawab 600 mg BD dan aku tak yakin adik aku pernah undergo TDM ke tak pernah. Waktu ni aku dibebel lagi. Haha. seriusly aku tak pernah berpeluang ikut adik aku ke hospital dan aku baru tahu Epilim ataupun Sodium Valproate kena buat TDM sem ni sedangkan adik aku dah ambil epilim lima tahun yang lepas. Kalau aku tanya mak aku pun, sure2 die pun tak tahu. Anyway, my bad for not knowing

P.J:Do you cook?

Aku pantas menjawab No (haha.. seriously i don't cook.. My mum always said malanglah sapa yang jadi suami ina ;P)

P.J: I'm sure you have cooked anything before. ( i nodded) Okay tell me in english.

Okay aku pun storyla about how to cook sambal bilis cili api (the only thing i know besides nasi goreng). P.J. corrected my pronunciation such as saute, onion, anchovy.

P.J: Kamu tahu pasal piramid makanan? apa paling atas dan apa paling bawah?

Aku jawab paling atas makan berminyak dan yang manis-manis. yang bawah sekali adalah bijirin seperti nasi dan oat. Maksudnya kita ambil yang paling atas kita ambil sikit dan yang paling ambil banyak. aku terangkan bagaimana makanan seharian-harian perlulah seimbang.

P.J: Cuba kamu bagi kauseling pasal makanan pada saya

Aku terangkan tentang total calorie requirement dan pemakanan seharian bergatung kepada matlamat kita samada mahu maintainkan kurangkan ataupun tambahkan berat. aku diminta memudahkan penjelasan dan beri kaunseling tentang pemakanan kepada seorang makcik kampung yang menghidap diabetes dan berkolesterol tinggi(mind you, makcik di kampung mungkin tak faham ape kalori-kalori nih). aku teringat dietition recommendation waktu belajar clinical nutrition di mana pinggan di belah 4: 1/2 sayur, 1/4 nasi, 1/4 lauk. P.J. mengangguk-angguk dengan jawapan aku.( mungkin puas hati kot<-- nak sedapkan hati)

P.M: Kalau makcik tu kata dia tak makan nasi dan makan roti tu saja macam mana?

Waktu ni aku rasa bersyukur sangat aku ambil clinical nutrition. Dengan konfidennya aku jawab 1 hidangan nasi bersamaan dengan 3 keping roti. 1 hidangan nasi adalah sebesar penumbuk. aku lihat kedua-dua penemuduga mengangguk-angguk (tanda setuju kot <-- sedapkan hati lagi).

P.J: Kalau macam tu penumbuk saya besar, maksudnya saya boleh ambil nasi sama besar dengan penumbuk saya ke?

truthfully, aku tak berapa yakin pasal ni so nak selamat aku pun jawablah sukat nasi dengan mangkuk seperti disaran dietitian. ( haha, mengelat)

P.J: Adik kamu belajar di Jordan, dia tak balik Malaysia?

Aku rasa mungkin die maksudkan krisis di timur tengah. Aku katakan Jordan tak teruk sangat mungkin sebab Jordan adalah sistem beraja so keadaan die lain sedikit daripada Mesir dan Tunisia. Kalau rakyat tak puas hati, dia boleh pecat je perdana menteri ganti yang baru.

P.J: Kamu ada apa-apa nak beritahu kami?

Aku fikir-fikir. Hmm tak de kot.

Maka berakhirlah temuduga.
Waktu ni aku baru aku perasan rupanya heels aku da completely separated from my shoes. aku pun kutiplah heels tersebut sebelum mengambil mengambil fail. Tamatlah riwayat kasut tersebut.. Aku pun cabut dan meronda-ronda ECM sambil terhenjut-henjut mencari sandal baru..

Sandal baru disamping kasut lama

P/S: Harap-harap aku tak dicampak jauh2.

Smoker

2011-02-18T18:50:00.003+08:00

Today, i just received my brother's medical report that may my mum sent.
i just took a look at the report and i was like, wHaT!!

It's written there:

" 19 years old Malay boy, SMOKER, with underlying epilepsy and Down's Syndrome....."

What the hell!! Ca'i only knows KFC drumstick not cigarette ok. Lighter pun tak pernah pegang, apatah lagi mancis. keje berguling-guling atas katil & melompat2 bile bosan, bile masa pulak nak sedut & hembus asap.

Cis, betul la, sungguh terpesong..

So, pengajaran kat sini, kalau clerk case janganlah bergantung pada case note semata-mata, interview patient betul2. mane tau ade misleading information tertulis kat situ..

Comel & animal abuse

2011-01-29T03:07:00.005+08:00

I'm very sad today. My cat, Comel died in front of me right at 2.59 am. it was a right decision not to sleep tonight to nurse her. my mom told me that she lose appetite 3 days ago and had diarrhea. she got injection from vet, the diarrhea stopped but she still refused to eat and drink. but still i fed her milk and water. usually i will use syringe, but unfortunately this time I've got no syringe so instead i used tiny straw to pull up water using capillary force to feed her milk. it was heartbreaking to witness how she went away, she was skinny, she had small jerky movement like spasm and finally at the end of her life she was gasping several times. At that moment, i woke my mom up and Comel finally ended her very short life on my mom's lap. Hope she had a good life and enjoying herself with us. Oh gosh, Amalina, please brace yourself, life is short anyway.

you know, several days ago i am also saddened with a video showing a Malaysian Chinese man abusing a poodle to get the dog stands on his hind limbs for 60 seconds. i tried to watch the video, but it was hard for me to finish it. you will know once you watch it. the video had angered many pet-lovers especially dog lovers around the world and has started man-hunting incidence in the internet searching for the cruel man and his girlfriend who recorded the 15 minutes video. This has alerted SPCA Malaysia and Singapore to look for these guys. For now, the man in the video is identified as Allen Tan and his girlfriend is Doreen Loo. For me, even though it was a dog that was abused, even though dog is a taboo in Islam, but the animal is still Allah's creature. We have to love them no to abuse them. why are men so cruel? how come human can become this low? I really hope this guy are found and beat up by other people. It's not worth to be punished with RM 200 fine and 5 months imprisonment according to Malaysia law.

http://www.facebook.com/permalink.php?story_fbid=104492602962078&id=160126524037293#!/pages/Andrew-Michelles-Save-the-Poodle-Mission/160126524037293

Ka ching

2010-12-28T11:26:00.004+08:00

Di satu pagi yang hening di hari minggu

Kring.. Kring..

Umi: Salam.. Tengah buat ape, hari tu umi miss call kenape x call balik?
Aku: Kredit xde
Umi: Kenape? takde duit sangat dah ke?
Aku: Aah.. Kat bank tinggal RM28 je, kat tangan ade RM100
Umi: bagi no akaun nanti umi masukkan

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Keesokan harinya, di ATM pak guard

ATM: Baki akaun anda RM 228
Aku: Yay... lepas duit minyak n makan untuk 2 minggu..

Kesimpulannya, walaupun umur dah nak masuk 24, still mintak duit parent. So hargailah ibu bapa anda, Jangan sekali-kali menderhaka. Tanpa mereka, sapelah nak tolong time sengkek macam ni.. dan janganlah boros berbelanja...

Breakfast: Beauty Pop

2010-12-16T07:48:00.004+08:00

I just had my breakfast today. Not NAsi Lemak or something but it is shojo manga, Beauty Pop. I'm into many genres of manga, be it shonen, shoujo, seinen etc but i'm very selective in reading shojo. Not all shoujo manga is good but some are.

Beauty Pop is about a group of people with talents to be beauticians. they started with a small club in school until finally they are able to build their own empire with obstacles along the way. they give their client the magic to be a more attractive person. the manga has a sense of comedy, a bit on envy, jealousy, romantic, friendship, betrayal and more. I finished the 10 volume manga in about 1 and 1/2 days. it is a good and relax read.

i just got some news regarding manga from Japan. they are going to ban manga with explicit sex content or something or else the mangaka will be fined. well, not that i care but i think it may affect the industry. it seems the bill is being opposed by mangakas and publishers. so maybe in the future no more hentai, yuri, yaoi, shonen ai, and shojo ai. well, who knows.

I'm hooked: Nausicaa of the valley wind

2010-12-11T23:35:00.009+08:00

I just finished watching anime from ghibli studio. Nausicaa of the valley wind. Even though the anime was produced in 1983 it is still impressive. The anime is about Nausicaa, a princess of valley wind, a kingdom which located near to toxic forest. the princess has the ability to interact with insects from toxic forest and Ohmu, a strange insect which guard the forest and she is very skilled in flying a jet called glider. Human cannot enter the toxic village without mask as it is lethal. one day, the kingdom of valley wind was attacked by a powerful state of Tolmekia. The state of Tolmekia and another kingdom, Pejite want to destroy the toxic forest by using giant soldier which was made from ancient technology. This has enraged the Ohmu, the guardian of toxic forest and cause them to attack the kingdom Pejite and valley wind. Nausicaa try to stop the attack by sacrificing her life. Finally she was able to calm the enraged ohmu and stop the attack. Nausicaa found that the toxic forest exists to purify the pollution on earth and ohmu guard the forest to maintain its existence.

The enraged Ohmu

the giant soldier

Nausicaa wearing mask rescuing Asbel (the prince of Pejite)

Nausicaa on her glider chased by Tolmekia gunship

Since i'm already hooked with the anime, I'm currently reading the manga. I hope the manga is very good an worth reading.

Japanese usually take the idea from their manga and anime seriously. This is the video of the glider test flight. I hope the glider can be marketed in the future..

Opportunity Cost

2010-10-17T09:17:00.002+08:00

Opportunity cost = benefit that forgone when you choose an alternative over the next best alternative

The concept is very simple, but the application is very wide.

Example:
you've got two choices, studying or loitering, you choose loitering then you lose the time to study, in the end you will cram studying in two/ one weeks before the final exam.

you've got two choices, doing assignment or sleeping. you choose to sleep. the time which supposedly used to do assignment will never come back. In the end, you've got too many assignments to do until you don't know which to start first

you've got two choices. doing report or going back home. you choose to go back home. then, you cannot finish report in time and cannot submit it on time.

you've got two choices, studying for quiz or hanging around. you choose to hang around with your friends. then you cannot finish the topics supposed to be covered. in the end, you just berserah and do the quiz halfheartedly.

solution:
Prioritize!!
you cannot have both in a very limited time. then, you've got to choose wisely, present happiness or future brightness. the decision is in your hand.

This is reminder for myself and also others. I've already lose hope for this semester. may i can survive next semester.

Doa & kucheng

2010-10-12T13:29:00.013+08:00

O Allah! I seek refuge in You from sorrow and sadness, and I seek refuge in You from unablness and laziness, and I seek refuge in You from cawordliness and miserliness, and I seek refuge in You from the harshness of debt and the overpower of men.

Ya Allah, aku berlndung kepada-Mu dari kebingungan dan kedukacitaan. Aku berlindung kepada-Mu dari sifat lemah dan malas. Aku berlindung kepada-Mu dari sifat penakut dan bakhil. Aku berlindung kepada-Mu dari beban hutang dan penindasan orang

Say: I seek refuge with the Lord of the Dawn. From the mischief of created things. From the mischief of Darkness as it overspreads. From the mischief of those who practise secret arts. And from the mischief of the envious one as he practises envy.

katakanlah olehmu ya Muhammad, saya berlindung dengan tuhan yang menjadikan semua makhluk, daripada segala kejahatan apa yang telah dia jadikan, dan dari kejadian malam yang sangat gelap, dari segala kejahatan tukang-tukang hasut dan dari segala kejahatan pendengki apabila ia dengki

لَا يُكَلِّفُ اللَّهُ نَفْسًا إِلَّا وُسْعَهَا لَهَا مَا كَسَبَتْ وَعَلَيْهَا مَا اكْتَسَبَتْ رَبَّنَا لَا تُؤَاخِذْنَا إِنْ نَسِينَا أَوْ أَخْطَأْنَا رَبَّنَا وَلَا تَحْمِلْ عَلَيْنَا إِصْرًا كَمَا حَمَلْتَهُ عَلَى الَّذِينَ مِنْ قَبْلِنَا رَبَّنَا وَلَا تُحَمِّلْنَا مَا لَا طَاقَةَ لَنَا بِهِ وَاعْفُ عَنَّا وَاغْفِرْ لَنَا وَارْحَمْنَا أَنْتَ مَوْلَانَا فَانْصُرْنَا عَلَى الْقَوْمِ الْكَافِرِينَ

Allah burdens not any soul beyond its capacity. It shall have the reward it earns, and it shall get the punishment it incurs. Our Lord, do not punish us, if we forget or fall into error; and our Lord, lay not on us a responsibility as Thou didst lay upon those before us. Our Lord, burden us not with what we have not the strength to bear; and efface our sins, and grant us forgiveness and have mercy on us; Thou art our Master; so help us Thou against the disbelieving people.

Allah tidak membebani seseorang melainkan sesuai dengan kesanggupannya. Ia mendapat pahala (dari kebajikan) yang diusahakannya dan ia mendapat siksa (dari kejahatan) yang dikerjakannya. (Mereka berdo`a): Ya Tuhan kami, janganlah Engkau hukum kami jika kami lupa atau kami tersalah. Ya Tuhan kami, janganlah Engkau bebankan kepada kami beban yang berat sebagaimana Engkau bebankan kepada orang-orang yang sebelum kami. Ya Tuhan kami, janganlah Engkau pikulkan kepada kami apa yang tak sanggup kami memikulnya. Beri maaflah kami; ampunilah kami; dan rahmatilah kami. Engkaulah Penolong kami, maka tolonglah kami terhadap kaum yang kafir.

Di kala hati tak berapa gembira, mehla kita tengok aksi tido kucheng2 ini

Kuning besar

Kelabu

Comot

Comel (newcomer)

Kuning kecik

zooming

Comel lagi

Comot & Kuning kecik

Aku

2010-10-10T00:54:00.008+08:00

Ini adalah duka-duka aku di Rx6th

Bila aku bertanya dalam kelas --> aku nak tunjuk pandai

Bila disoal dalam kelas dan disuruh tulis kat depan --> aku disuruh ke depan

Bila takde sape nak masuk kuiz wakil sister --> orang cari aku walaupun aku tak pandai

Bila aku bertanya khabar --> aku dikatakan mengejek

Bila aku cuba mempersoalkan sesuatu keputusan --> aku mencabar tuan

Bila bas aku pukul 10 --> aku menyusahkan sume orang, sebab aku sume program cancel walaupun aku beli tiket lepas konfem tentatif & lepas aku sure ade orang nak kejar LRT
(x perlu suggest psl naik bus ekspress dr penang, mmg da rancang klu tentatif xberubah)

Bila aku mintak drop kat tol jalan duta --> aku buat driver bas macam driver aku padahal jalan tu mmg on the way nak pegi ke lebuhraya pantai timur dan aku tak mintak driver turunkan aku depan terminal LRT macam sesetengah orang

Bila aku xpegi program --> serius kecoh, tapi orang tak pegi kelas, tak kecoh pun

Bila aku tulis entri ni ----> sure2 orang kata aku nak mengungkit n x ikhlas kan? pastu nak defend diri n blame orang lain kan? habis tu, selama ni aku dicemuh je, tanpa soal selidik, macamla aku hati aku ni batu, so terpaksa meh.

simpulan bahasa:
Talam dua muka,
maksudnya depan si A cakap lain, depan si B cakap lain
contoh:
Nak balik cepat, nak kejar LRT, LRT sampai kul 12 je
Bile petang, sapa2 nak balik awal, sila turun dari bas ni.. fuh fuhh..

Sorry, i know who you are already.

It seems like this post will offend somebody, but why not?
Anyway, tq very much!! i have so much sweet memory in this class
keep on mengumpat n menfitnah..

Mibu & Jew

2010-09-03T22:01:00.003+08:00

When I read manga, I cannot help to relate them with the real life. I'm a person with high level of curiosity, and if I'm curious I will find out about something from different angels so that I don't stick to only one story. Not long ago I'm curious about Jew. As a Muslim, i learn about Jew since I was little, but not as a whole so some facts are missing. because of that, I try to read about them. And what I read is really shocking, some actually contradicts with what I perceived before. And surprisingly, when I read about them, I cannot help but to compare them with a clan called Mibu in a manga, Kyo Samurai Deeper.

Mibu:
Mibu clan in Kyo Samurai Deeper is a race of superhuman. They have high level of knowledge in science and technology. With that, they are able to live longer than normal human and has been controlling Japan in a shadow. It can be said that they are the one that rule Japan since they choose who are going to be the ruler of Japan and they are the one that influence the history of Japan. Since they are more powerful than the rest of human, they refer themselves as god and become arrogant.
However, the later generation of Mibu suffers from incurable disease and when they die, the body disperses without leaving a trace. It was later revealed that the real Mibu clan has actually extinct long time ago because they fight each other for greater power and the one that replaces them is only a battle doll made by the true Mibu clan.

Jew:
Since I was little, I view Jew as a race, which embrace a religion called Judaism and they call their god as YHWH. I believe most muslims share the same view. Jew called themselves as a chosen people which is agreed by christian. The rest of human is called goyim or gentile which put them at level higher than the rest of human. I always wonder how a race which is said the oldest race that still survive which is claimed to had undergone genocide and victimized since forever can actually escape from extinction. Then, later i knew the real fact. It lies on the definition of Jew itself.

Actually there are problems in determining who is a Jew. Sounds weird, but yes it is.

One is considered as Jew by birth or by conversion.
There are some laws for determination of Jewish identity by birth. Torah forbids Jew to intermarry with non-Jew since they consider Jew and the rest of human as different species. If a Jew marries with non-Jew, the Jewish identity is passed by the Jewish mother. but this contradicts with the karaite Judaism (a Judaism movement) which considers Jewishness is passed from the Jewish father.

For becoming a Jew through conversion, one has to go through strict procedure before being acknowledged as a Jew. Different movements hold different requirement to be a Jew. They are called the proselyte.

My view:
It is confusing to determine what is Jew and who is a Jew. Different movement has different view, so which one is the real one?
Is Jew a race or a religion?
if one can convert to Jew, does that mean the rest of goyim can become jew and raise to higher level and become the chosen people?
If it is so, those who do not convert to be Jew must be masochist, isn't it?

So i think, there is no real Jew left in this world. even if they still exist, only a very small number left. So, they have no right to claim the Palestine land as theirs.
My mom once said to me, " i think jew's cruelty and arrogance are inherited from the 9 brothers of prophet Joseph which abandoned their brother in a well", and I responded "No way, the Jews today are not even related to them, they are fake!".

Being 23

2010-08-29T12:32:00.002+08:00

Last night i said to my mum, "umi, I'm going to be 23 tomorrow". and My mum responded, "yes, you are that old already. when i was at your age, i already has you".

See, now I'm one year older than yesterday, will i be a better person?

I'm always impressed at others' achievement. how come he/she can do so much in his/her life. how different am i compared to them.

At the age of 23, my mum gave birth to me while she was still studying, my dad has already crossed the Selat Melaka to get a better life, Siti Nurhaliza has already spread her wing to Japan. What about me?

So, Amalina, set your goal, plan your life, be what you wanna be, do what you wanna do, do not afraid to take risk, do not give up when you fail, live your life to the fullest. when the time comes, it's maybe your turn to shine. May Allah grant your wish so that you can contribute something to the world, to the religion, to the ummah, to the country, to the people. May Allah strengthens your heart so that you will overcome whatever that comes. Aminn..

Which one??

2010-08-26T20:39:00.003+08:00

Some of my classmates are going crazy over a gadget called iPod touch. It is claimed that this gadget will be very much help in one of our killer subjects this year which is pharmacotherapeutic. It started with some guys in my class and started to spread to sisters. If I'm not mistaken, 4 of our sisters have already own one and it is predicted that more will buy this gadget very soon.

Actually, I'm a bit depressed because I'm not good in pharmacotherapeutic so I also want one if it will help me to master the subject. The problem is I've no enough money. I just bought netbook lenovo ideapad S10-3 worth RM1349 and only some left. But I still want it. So I made a call to my dad and ask for help. Gladly, he is willing to lend some. so here comes the problem.

The actual purpose I wanna buy this gadget is for educational purpose, so I thought if I were to buy, I will choose the 8G one which worth RM779. However, the 32G seems appealing because the capacity is 4 times the former but worth RM1199 that is extra only RM420. So, which one should I choose? If I choose 8G, I fear that it performs slower but if I choose 32G, I fear that it defeats the original purpose since there are lots of spaces and I will end up downloading games, songs and many others which I'm sure will distract me... so WHICH ONE???

Whine

2010-08-25T17:19:00.002+08:00

I hate quiz when

it is pop
it covers more that it should
i have no i pod
it makes my heart go doki-doki in class
i cannot pay attention to the lecture
there is pile of notes for quiz on my table instead of note book to jot down the lecture (sounds familiar?)
i feel like not coming to class because i worry for quiz in the evening
there is less people coming to class until at some point other lecturers notice
it takes my resting time
it is unfair.. i want to cheat too
i feel sad because i cannot i answer the question
i whine and whine but there is nothing i can do about it
i feel like I'm gambling my own future
i lose control over my gpa and cgpa
i lose control over my study time
class feels gloomier on the quiz day, everybody keeps on studying and i can see stress are all over their faces
i have to mark other's quiz paper and i don't know how to give mark because the question is subjective and people have 1001 ways of answering

And lastly i hate Google image!! seriously!!!

Complaint

2010-08-22T17:46:00.003+08:00

Ini adalah entry yang penuh dengan komplen

Sem ni seperti yang sumer maklum, mid sem dimansuhkan n digantikan dgn kuiz. seriesly aku xkesah pun tapi yang penting bagi aku adalah planning menjayakan sesuatu keputusan tu. dalam subjek QA, ade satu term yang aku br belaja iaitu: Quality design, tapi seriusly, bg aku system baru ni mmg dah fail dari design lagi. ade design ke tak pun aku tak sure.

Waktu matric dulu pun ade quiz, ade tutorial, but ok je, aku takde pun rase tension or geram ke. Sistem lagi teratur, markah pun taklah rely on kuiz semata2. Maybe someone patut diantar balik ke matric untuk mengkaji system yang digunakan.

Lagi, sistem baru ni membebankan aku sbbnya aku jadi tak flexible, kalau asyik subjek tu je nak buat kuiz, subjek2 lain bile pulak aku nak study.

Pastu aku nak komplen pasal SLT. it is claimed that time allocated for student to study are one hour before class, one hour in class and one more hour after class. betul ke?? kalau kelas hr ni 6hours, so maknanya aku kene study malam semalam 6 hours, malam ni another 6 hours. ok fine, so mcm mane pulak 6 hours class tomorrow?? jangan dilupa report, assignment, presentation. so persoalannya, betul ke bagai dikata?

So, bagi aku, sem baru ni mmg xde perancangan langsung, hanya try n error je, klu ok oklah, klu x ok, student punye salah.. dan sebenarnye, midsem bukan dimansuhkan, tp dibanyak-kalikan..

So in conclusion, blehh.. aku stress!!!!

Kucing gen 2

2010-08-02T13:27:00.017+08:00

Minggu lepas rancang nak balik tapi tak jadi sebab ade hal lain kena buat kat UIA so aku pun stay jela kat bilik sorang2. Tibe2 rase rindu kat anak2 kat rumah so aku pun suruh la adik aku upload gamba anak2 aku yang dia ambil gune handfon samsung wave die yang baru tu. Agak rindu jugakla dengan samsung die tuh pasal sebelum die balik jordan sempat jugak aku gune main asphalt 5. memang best lahhh

Semalam sebelum tido aku pun download la fail gamba tersebut... dan inilah gamba2 kucing generasi ke2 aku :::>

Dalam kotak IKEA ni adalah noneng dan anak-anaknye: comot n kuning kecik. comot n kuning kecik suke tidur kat jendela

Mmm.. cak!!

Comot pulak suke main dalam pasu..

yang ni kuning besar, die sepesel sbb die boleh melunjur kaki

Ni pulak adalah kelabu...

Wawawa.. rindunya, cepat la raya, x saba nak balik nihh.

Manga online

2010-07-25T19:44:00.006+08:00

I started reading manga online about 3 years back when I started using celcom broadband. before that my manga access is by buying kreko, arena komik and manga books published by Comics House and Tora Aman. I first read manga online at Onemanga and then switch to Mangafox and some other websites. The good things about manga online are they are free, there are more options and readers have the privilege which to read and you need not to go to shop and then find places to locate your books and magazines. Moreover, there are updated. The bad thing is when the manga got licensed, the manga will be pulled off from the website. But still you still can browse through the net and if you are lucky you can find it elsewhere. Before this, I noticed there are debates whether manga online is legal or not, about the copyright, piracy bla bla bla, but i don't go deep into it.

However this morning when I want to take my drugs ( well, manga that is), I found something is wrong with the website. this is how mangafox appears. i tried several times, but still no access.

Then i tried onemanga, the website is still alive but there is message appears

"It pains me to announce that this is the last week of manga reading on One Manga (!!). Manga publishers have recently changed their stance on manga scanlations and made it clear that they no longer approve of it. We have decided to abide by their wishes, and remove all manga content (regardless of licensing status) from the site. The removal of content will happen gradually (so you can at least finish some of the outstanding reading you have), but we expect all content to be gone by early next week (RIP OM July '10).

So what next? We're not really sure at this point, but we have some ideas we would like to try out. Until then, the One Manga forums will remain active and we encourage all of you to continue using them. OMF has developed into a great community and it would be a shame to see that disappear.

Regardless of whether you stay with us or not, on behalf of the One Manga team, I would like to thank you all for your unwavering support over the years. Through the ups and downs you have stuck with us, and that is what kept us going.

As a certain Porky was fond of saying... That's all folks!

Time for me to go lay down and let this all sink in.

- Zabi"

I was like IS IT FOR REAL?? It was like a death penalty to me. Good thing mangatraders is still alive. Seems like i will have to download top mangas that i haven't read. Maybe i will switch back to Kreko and Arena komik (which cost me at least RM5 each) for some time until this chaos will get better (hopefully) and if i were to buy english manga at borders it costs me at least RM40 each!!. Oh my, i really need these drugs (mangas) or i will get really really really depressed....................................
Damn it! Damn it! publisher sucks!! Grrrr (gritting teeth)

Oh My 3X

2010-07-07T02:26:00.005+08:00

I was just watching a must see which also a mustn't see Korean movie.. Oh my gosh. the storyline is so beautiful beyond words, it is so twisted.. I myself don't know which side should i be. the bad thing is, too many unneeded scenes. i must say if one wants to watch this movie you HAVE to have a very very high tolerance towards something that is so taboo in your life. You may feel disgust at the middle of the story and towards the end you will feel sad, to me at least.. It is very recommended to read the synopsis first, if you think you can endure, just go ahead.. Oh my gosh, Tikah, what movie are you giving me???

Title: A Frozen Flower
Synopsis: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/A_Frozen_Flower

boycott, motherland

2010-07-02T23:30:00.005+08:00

1) BoycottToday is a month and a day after humanitarian aid ship, Mavi Marmara and her six vessels were attacked by the rogue state, Israel which killed at least 9 and injured many others. Israel received spontaneous condemnation from the world except from her very close ally, U.S. Israel is fast in diverting public opinion by alleging the ship as a hate ship, not a love ship. As it is hard to digest by logic, Israel insisted to run her own investigation on her own crime but nothing is impossible since Israel is always above the law. The Jewish state seems invincible because the economy, politic and media are controlled by them. as Mahathir once said, "Jews rule world by proxy". Thus as a human who wants justice, who refuses to let my money to be used in killing and hurting others, i would like to call again and again to boycott products from Israel and from companies who support them. I admit that their products quality is so good and no other products could surpass theirs yet, but we won't die if we don't buy them but people will die if we do. And I really hope the boycott is not temporary but long lasting. Please remember the faces of those who are dying in Gaza when you feel the urge to buy the products. They need us..

2) Motherland

I don't know whether I'm the right person to say this. Whether I'm qualified enough to speak about it. I am a daughter of an immigrant and a local couple. I am classified by constitution as Malay who is Muslim and practice Malay adat. I'm not good in politic. Hell i will avoid to discuss about it. But even so, I still feel sad, I feel threatened. I feel that in no time this land will no longer be ours, the land will be snatched from us right in front of our eyes. I'm not sure who the snatchers would be, maybe the people from inside, maybe from outside. Who knows. Geographically,in south east Asia, there are only 3 countries where the majority are Muslims, namely Malaysia, Indonesia and Brunei. But we are not in a good term with our neighbors. For me it's important if we could maintain this because Muslim minority in all over the world are suppressed and I feel lucky I could practice what I believe freely without fear in this country. But who knows will this be the same in the future?
Call me pessimistic, call me negative, but I fear that this country will end up like Palestine if we keep on sleeping. I know Malaysia is not part of the promised land but still, the land is precious to us.
If that happen, will i blame the evil snatcher?
No, i will blame the weak us, the sleeping us, the lazy us. The us that like to fight each other for power and money. The us that like to bribe and be bribed. The us who fail to recognize who to fight and who to befriend. The us who cannot walk without walking stick. The us who cannot stand without somebody to pull. The us who cannot move forward without being pushed. I hope I can break free from the curse that entangle us..

Lirik Anak Kecil Main Api (Versi Lama)

Anak kecil main api
Terbakar hatinya yang sepi
Air mata darah bercampur keringat
Bumi dipijak milik orang

Nenek moyang kaya-raya
Tergadai seluruh harta benda
Akibat sengketa sesamalah kita
Cinta lenyap di arus zaman

Indahnya bumi kita ini
Warisan berkurun lamanya
Hasil mengalir ke tangan yang lain
Peribumi merintih sendiri

Masa depan sungguh kelam
Kan lenyap peristiwa semalam
Tertutuplah hati terkunci mati
Maruah peribadi dah hilang

Kini kita cuma tinggal kuasa
Yang akan menentukan bangsa
Bersatulah hati bersama berbakti
Pulih kembali harga diri

Kita sudah tiada masa
Majulah dengan maha perkasa
Janganlah terlalai teruskan usaha
Melayu kan gagah di nusantara
Melayu kan gagah di nusantara
Melayu kan gagah di nusantara

Murdered kitten

2010-05-06T05:17:00.002+08:00

Last night, after feeding my cats and kittens, and watch over them when they litter, i brought all the kittens to my brother's bedroom. They run, they cuddle each other and play happily. then when it's about midnight, i want to go to my bedroom. usually, i will locked them in the basket since the cage is outside the house and I'm afraid they will feel cold. but last night, i didn't since they were sleeping on the floor together with their mothers. i close the door and take a 8 months male cat named Kuning to sleep with me and left the rest in the room since my mum is sleeping there too. and then i suddenly wake up because i thought it's already morning, i open the window of my bedroom so that Kuning can go outside if he wants to. then i continue to sleep. i woke up back when i heard cats fighting in my bedroom. i saw a tomcat is inside my room and i chased him out. suddenly, i felt the urge to check on my kittens. i was seriously in shock when i saw blood under my brother's bed. i screamed calling my mother to come. At that time i only saw 2 of my kitten lying in flood of blood. the blood was dried already. i looked around looking the other three. my mum has started crying while my heart was throbbing looking for them. first i only found one behind the door, then one on the treadmill and another one in the kitchen's cabinet. i felt so relieved. my mum asked me which has died. when i said Gapi and Capang my mum was wailing because Gapi is biggest and the 2nd cutest. my mum then lift the died kitten and put them in the plastic and i put the plastic inside the cage. i then washed the bloody room and put the rest of the kitten in my bedroom. they were in fact sleeping next to me as i wrote this.

when i googling about male cat kill kitten, i found that actually the male will smell the scent of the kitten, if the kitten is not his offspring, the cat will kill them to prevent the offspring of another male to be arisen. moreover, if the kitten is killed, the mother will have no kitten to take care of and thus the female will enter into heat phase and start mating. this will give chance to the male to mate the female and keep his line of gene. how does the male cat kill, they will bite the nape of neck of the kitten and violently shake them. this will break the neck bone of the kitten and as the result, the kitten die.

i really regretted that i didn't take the kitten which were suckling at that time from their mother and locked them up, or at least bring them to my room so that i can watch over them the whole night. i finally realized why cat give birth to several kittens at a time and can get pregnant up to 3 times per year. it is because their lifespan is actually short especially kitten and there is so much risks for them to grow where they may become prey of another male cat, they may become subjected to poisons, and may be infected with illnesses. Alas, they were dead already. if i can rewind the time, i will fix the situation, but i can't. just wait if i ever catch the evil tomcat, seriously i will beat him and throw him away from my house, may be at KT town.

Ujian

2010-04-08T00:42:00.004+08:00

Baru-baru ini aku ditimpa ujian dari Ilahi. Sungguh aku kelu dan terkedu, tapi aku cuba gagahkan diri, cuba menahan air mata dari membasahi pipi. Namun segagah-gagah aku cuba berdiri, hatiku tak mahu menyepi, terus membisik-bisik, berdesir-desir membuat aku merasa gundah di hati. Aku sebenarnya sudah puas, sudah rentan diuji begini. Namun aku masih mahu cuba menyelami hikmah di sebalik yang terjadi. Aku cuba mencari punca, cuba mencari sebab mengapa aku diuji.

Mungkin Allah masih menyayangi, mungkin banyak yang perlu dibaiki, banyak yang perlu diubati. Aku akui, mungkin aku terlalu ikuatkan duniawi. apa yang kumahu, semua kan kuperolehi. Namun, mungkinku alpa, jadi Allah mahu kusedari, hidup di dunia bukanlah hakiki.

"Experience is the best teacher".
Selagi kita tak mengalaminya sendiri, kita takkan menghargai, kita takkan memahami. Bukan tidak pernah ku ketahui, sebelum ni banyak sudah yang terjadi. Namun, ku hanya sekadar mampu mendengar, hanya mampu bersimpati. Tapi pabila kita sendiri mengalami, baruku tahu, betapa perit yang perlu ditempuhi. Tapi, selain denau yang harus kulangkahi, aku juga peroleh pengajaran yang takkan kulupa sampai mati.

Sabar dan Redha
Hidup takkan sepi dari diuji. Satu demi satu harus kita lalui. Namun, aku tahu dan percaya, DIA menguji hambaNYA dengan ujian yang pasti mampu dihadapi, untuk melihat seteguh mana iman di hati. Jadi, untuk menerima ganjaran dan kasih dari Ilahi, sabar dan redha harus dimiliki. Usah dikeluh usah dirintih lagi, sungguh Allah sentiasa disisi.

Muhasabah
Kadangkala, musibah diberi untuk diteliti. Adakah kita masih di landasan yang hak, atau sudah tersimpang jauh dari Ilahi. Jika kita perhati dan muhasabah kembali, kita pasti dapat jawapan yang dicari. Maka dapatlah kita memperbaiki diri dan tidak mengulanginya kembali.

Masih sayang
Di dunia serba moden ini, kadangkala kita terlalu busy, hinggakan kita jauh dari Ilahi. Jadi ditimpakanNYA ujian berkali-kali, menyedarkan kita, pada siapa harus ku taruh harapan, ku pinta sokongan. Maknanya Allah sayangkan kita, tidak mahu kita terus tenggelam dengan noda.

Sesuai dengan diri
Nilai harta berbeza-beza untuk setiap insani. Jika Allah mahu menguji, sudah pasti berdasarkan kepentingan harta dimiliki. Jadi usah dipertikai lagi mengapa aku diuji seberat ini.

Hanyalah pinjaman
Kecewa dirasa pabila harta lesap dari mata.Rasa tak keruan tidak terhingga. Sudah-sudahlah, itu sebenarnya bukan milik kita. Ianya hanyalah pinjaman semata dari yang ESA. Jadi, janganlah terlalu berputih mata, bermuram durja. Tuan empunya hanya meminjam sahaja, tiba masa kita pulangkanlah semula.

Sedari kecil sudah kuterapkan kata-kata ini:
" jika kau rasakan masalahmu terlalu berat, sesungguhnya masih ada insan yang masalahnya berkali ganda lagi berat" - Kak Irma
"Apa yang terbaik pada pandangan kita tak sebenarnya baik pada pandangan Allah"

Dari majalah mingguan wanita
"setelah berlapar ada kenyang, setelah haus ada kepuasan, setelah berjaga malam ada tidur nyenyak, dan setelah sakit ada kesembuhan.
Setiap yang hilang ada pengganti, dalam kesulitan ada kemudahan, setiap kegelapan ada terang benderang, dan setiap pengorbanan ada ganjarannya. Hanya masa yang menentukan kerana Allah mahu menguji tahap kesabaran dan keimanan kita"

See, duhai hati, sesungguhnya jadi Muslim itu tidak rugi. Walau setajam mana jalanan berduri harus dilalui, percayalah Allah sentiasa memerhati dan sentiasa di sisi. Jika iman tebal di jiwa, insyaAllah ada ganjaran untuk kita.

Long hand

2010-04-06T07:47:00.003+08:00

Long hand or in Malay panjang tangan is a simpulan bahasa for those who like to take other people's things without the owner's permission which also known as pencuri. mereka ni don't care about time when to curi barang. anytime, anywhere they standby all the time.. they also don't care whether the owner will sembahyang hajat or bace yasin or berdoa to the Almighty so that the pencuri will get the balasan later. "so what?" is what the pencuri would say. if only Allah's law is enforced, maybe they won't steal any other orang punye barang anymore because they have serik already since their hands are already cut off.

why i write about this culprit? because my sweetheart, DELL 11z purplish color together with his(his?) new friends, nokia and ZTE modem have been kidnapped by the pencuri. Owh i so pity them. It's okay, maybe our jodoh is meant only for almost a month. I have to let you go because even though i love you all with all my heart, you are only harta dunia, anytime i can find those similar with you. Don't be sad okay.. And for the pencuri, mujurla I'm Muslim, which i believe in qada n qadar, angel of Atid n Raqib, heaven n hell, and prayer of org dianiaya will be granted. So, we may not confront each other in this worldly world, so we deal in the hereafter jela. wait for me at day of mizan okay. ^3^ muah..

What i learn today

2010-03-12T14:14:00.004+08:00

Life is not easy. You interact with people and you try to live to the fullest, without neglecting the principles of life that you believe. however when dealing with people, you never know when you strive to live in your ideal life, you hurt people without knowing and people hold grudge unto you and when you have to face the reality, people actually hate you. You try to limit the interaction as little as possible but as impossible as it sounds, you could never escape.

Thus what i learn and what i can conclude , in interacting with people:

Never ever think positive, those people actually hate you
Never assume, as assumption is very dangerous
When you have problem with certain people, settle the problem, never keep it
Never blame, never attack, ask first
Never post your frustration on newspaper, social network or whatever, better deal personally with the people first, maybe that person has the reason.
Never listen from one side, as the other side might have different stories
When people act differently from your logic, find out the reason
Don't spread out stories before you figure out the real situation
If you want to advice, never use harsh word even if you think that person is at fault.
When you think you are at the right side, never forget the opposite party also think the same thing
When people did some mistake in the past, or when people did something that annoy you, never use it back to judge or even attack that person. you never know, whether that person realize that he/she has done the mistake, sometimes, you yourself see things in a wrong way
Never use intermediaries in solving problems, sentences may be interpreted differently if other people say them. better you yourself convey the message
apologize and forgive even if you think you are at the right side. this also apply to the outsiders
Be open and welcome critics

There are actually many things that i learn today. All of these come from the real story. I directed this to myself and also to the others. I admit I made mistake and I hope others will do the same things. You never know when will the same problem strike you. I really really appreciate it if those who have problems with me before, present or in the future come and discuss personally with me. InsyaAllah, with open heart, I will try to accept. but one thing for sure, I do my best and hope for the best in everything I do. Not only the best for me, but for others too.

Tactic

2009-10-19T12:22:00.001+08:00

The story goes like this:

A girl's wandering around the booths wanna look around. Then she saw a booth with lots of magazines. Seems interesting, she wanted to stop by the booth. A second she was there, a man approached her asking what she's looking for. The girl said nothing, just wanna have a look. Then the man explained that they have promotion where the girl can subscribe a magazine worth RM700 +/- for one year with only RM500 plus other two monthly magazines for free. The girl's understood and just nodding while listening to the man.

Sounds good but it's not my priority, so the girl thought.

When the man finished explaining, he suddenly took out the receipt book asking the girl to write her name, address and contact number. Confused, the girl told him that she hasn't even decided to buy. The man said "that's okay, just write your particular and pay the deposit, RM50 or RM100 either one is okay and come again tomorrow". The girl didn't know what to do. She didn't want to buy and wanted to refuse politely, but it seems the man didn't want to understand.

The girl gave excuses that she doesn't have cash, the man said the ATM is around, she wants to think first and come again later, the man said you must come, I have already remembered you. The girl became annoyed, then she said, "I have to discuss with my mum first, I'm not a rich girl you know. Moreover, if I give deposit, what if I suddenly don't want to buy?" The man was silenced. Then finally he said to the girl, "okay, just write in your particular, but it will be good if you have made up your mind to buy and come back tomorrow".

Satisfied, the girl filled in the particular, took the business card handed to her and left the booth swearing not to come again!!

Jeez... what the heck! no one has right to force someone to do or to buy whatever he doesn't want to. This thing will only makes one afraid to come to your shop again. I know la you will only open your booth for 3 days and want to sell as much as possible and doesn't have to worry whether you customers will run or not. But it will be better if you respect other's right to choose and show your professionalism in business.

Haiya, I'm familiar la with this tactic, have encountered one when I went to optician to survey on contact lenses which ended up having forced to buy one. lucky I really really don't have cash at that time. Sorry to disappoint you, businessman.

Addiction

2009-10-14T00:33:00.008+08:00

my friend asks: why long time not update your blog? i need something to read
me: i have one thing to write about, but need to study about that first
my friend: no need to write about heavy heavy stuff la.. light light okay what..

Hmm.. simple issue,
well lets talk about addiction..
addiction simply said, craving for something. sometimes we crave for good stuff, but sometimes we also crave for bad stuff. when we are addicted to something, it's very hard to stop and hard to control. i, too, get addicted. my addiction goes to:

1. sunflower seeds
whenever i go shopping, i will never forget to buy sunflower seeds or Malay word: kuaci. even when my mum goes to work, i never miss asking her to buy me one or two packets of sunflower seeds. just recently, my mum bought me a big plastic consisting of 10 packets of kuaci and i finished them in just 3 days. OMG, I'm severely addicted to this one. the bad thing about kuaci is they create too many waste, always need plastic bag around.

2. internet
i think I'm gonna die without internet. i started getting addicted to internet when i was about 15. i cried and begged my mum to install dial-up telekom internet in my house. i even promised my mum to pay RM1/hour of use, just like cyber cafe. i can't help laughing whenever i remember there is one tabung on the computer desk. however, after months i was just like forgotten the promise i made with my mum and the tabung was kept empty.
now, with modem and sim card, i can browse internet whenever and wherever i want. with internet i will always keep updated about what's happening in the world and i always keep terlajak until hours just browsing news, you tube, blogs etc etc. so, my time to study is always getting interrupted. hope it's not affecting my result but I'm sure it did already.

3. manga and anime

first manga i read was Doraemon, then my friend introduced me to Yuyu Hakusho, Pakar Judo, Penyiasat remaja then i found Kreko. after that i keep on buying and collecting manga. . i allocated about RM 30 every month just for manga. after years, i found that i have one full cabinet of manga. my dad failed to stop my addiction and my mum even said it's okay if my result is not affected. just recently when i came to Kuantan i felt it's hard to buy them, so i switched to online manga. the bad thing is i cannot collect them. i want material manga, not the virtual one.
i'm not so into anime. but i once spend all my 3 months salary of my after-SPM-job to buy anime. Hoho, what an expensive way to spend your money

4. shopping
Hmm.. it is an addiction?? well, when I'm going out, i can't help but buy whatever things i think i want. even though i already planned what i wanna buy, in the end, i end up buying just anything. until now, it seems i will never spend less than RM100 whenever I'm going out. so to avoid overspending, i just spend my day inside IIUM.

5._ _ _ _
haha. i think i will keep this one a secret. very-very hard to stop. remember when i sad bad stuff, this one is a bad stuff. Oops, tikah, maybe you know what i mean, just keep quiet. anyway, just pray i can stop this one.

There goes my addiction list. maybe there are few other things that i forget to mention. just hoping the addiction won't affected my normal life.

then, what're you addicted to?

“You do anything long enough to escape the habit of living until the escape becomes the habit.” - David Ryan

Food Hijacking? Don't be stupid

2009-09-18T22:45:00.004+08:00

"We cannot continue to let other countries hijack our food. Chilli crab is Malaysian. Hainanese chicken rice is Malaysian. We have to lay claim to our food,” she told reporters after launching the Malaysia International Gourmet Festival yesterday."

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When Indonesians started to claim everything that we have eaten since we were born to be solely theirs, i instantly think what nonsense they are talking about. Food supposed to be be enjoyed, no to fight over. isn't it nice to know that our preference and our happiness when enjoying the cuisine are also enjoyed by others regardless what their countries and races are. i even thought the silence of Malaysians over food war with Indonesians reflect how mature Malaysians are.

However my thought is shattered when i found a news on Malaysian's food being hijacked by other countries. what the heck. food is not like a plane to be hijacked for. if there are similarities or even the exact same food are being served by others, let it be. that means our food has gone international. what right do we have to stop others to eat the food that we also eat. we do not live in isolated world, so just share what is good and hinder what is bad. I'm afraid this issue will reveal our stupidity and we will be mocked over by the people of the world. Really, how third class mentality do we have here. If you don't want the food to be shared, then don't write recipe books, don't do TV show on food and don't even cook the food.

Geez, we are supposed to go forward, but we actually go backward. We insult on others' stupidity but we don't realize we are also stupid. Just stop being so childish. Even kids can share their candies, why can't we??

Biadap? Bodoh? Tak bertamadun?

2009-09-09T09:36:00.004+08:00

Sila baca
Dan ini kata mereka --> baca

Dan ini pula kata aku:

Aku sungguh sudah muak dengan isu yang sungguh bodoh pada kiraanku. Kebodohan, keangkuhan, kedengkian terpancar dari setiap gerak laku manusia yang mana darah keturunannya juga mengalir dalam setiap pembuluh darahku. Aku bukan orang lain, aku wujud dari darah kamu (indonesia) dan darah mereka (malaysia). aku sungguh tak mengerti ke mana hilangnya sikap tolak ansur, ke mana hilangnya budi pekerti, ke mana hilangnya sopan santun. Aku sungguh tak faham adakah otak dan akal yang dianugerahkan kepada hanya insan itu digunakan sepenuhnya. Tidak adakah tatabahasa selain maling, curi, rompak dalam kamus otak mereka. Manusia hidup di bumi bersama dan berinteraksi sesama mereka. Jikalau dahulu, manusia berperang kerana perbezaan antara mereka, tapi kini kita pula mahu berperang kerana kita serupa. Sungguh menyedihkan. Kita hanya berbeza oleh tanah yang hanya nama berbeza, tekstur dan fizikalnya sama. Sebelum tanah ini diberi nama, kita adalah kita, kamu adalah aku dan aku adalah kamu. Sejarah manusia bukan hanya bermula berdekad dahulu, sudah berabad dan lebih dari itu. Oleh itu, kenapa tidak panjangkan fikiran kamu, luaskan pandangan kamu, fikirkan kenapa dan logiknya aku, kamu dan mereka iaitu kita serupa dan hanya sedikit berbeza. Sesungguhnya aku juga sebahagian dari kamu. Kamu mencerca, tapi akhirnya kamu sendiri yang kena.

Kata-kata hari ini:

"Jika kamu mahu usir orang asing dari tanah kamu, kenapa tidak panggil pulang orang kamu dari tanah asing dahulu?"

NO GAIN WITHOUT PAIN??

2009-08-25T15:33:00.005+08:00

Like i have written before, the world works in equilibrium. to get something you have to pay an equal amount. however in some situation, the equilibrium concept might not work. even after you have paid a very big amount, even if you shed tears and bloods, even if you lose your precious time, even if you risk your future in it, you might get little of what's you are hoping for, you may even got nothing. in the end you may even get extra gloomy, extra sadness, extra tears flowing on you cheeks, extra hatred, and you may even hurt yourself.

i try my best not to reveal my anger, not to unveil my disappointment, and i try my best not to write in this blog during the climax of my anger. i hope everything will settle out when the time comes. i try to cope with the problem, i try to be positive, i try to put trust on people, i try to push everything done, but it ends up uselessly. i keep reminding myself to believe that people knows his role, people knows his responsibility and he realizes that we live for something. everyone is born to play his very own role. just realize it and you will know where to stand. you will know why you are here. if you realize that, the system will run smoothly. and you know, you are not responsible only for your own self. others' fate will also depends on you. and it's not a very little thing that you can see with only one eye. it is really a heavy and tough task. everybody else will bear the brunt of what you are doing and also of what you're not doing.

i'm not looking for perfectness. i myself is not perfect. i also blame myself for being so stupid, clumsy, idiot and whatever you can think of. but at least please grant me with your cooperativeness, please grant me with your passion and please grant me your interest. i really don't care if you are slow, i don't care if your cgpa is low than standard and i don't care for whatever you are. but i do care if you think that just ok is enough. I do care if you are so ignorant of what you should do, i do care if you think you can escape from you responsibility and let others burden by it. seriously, please and please change your mindset. world doesn't work that way.

one said marks doesn't reflect of what you are, of what your level of knowledge are, of how good you are. however, this is the measure adapted in the rest of the world. so i really mind of my marks and i advise you should too. one even said don't hate the person but hate the action, but i don't think i can do that. once you break my heart, once you break my trust, i may hate you forever. i may look like this, but i have anger, so don't ever try my patience. i really hate using feeling to manage something. i really hate subjective things, i use objective in most of my doing. so please don't force me to do what i hate the most.

whatever it is, i guess i have to say sorry for those who have listened to my wailing, my whining and cursing. you may hear them again when i'm annoyed, so i apologize in advance...

Gadoh

2009-08-07T23:05:00.002+08:00

Since mid semester exam will be coming in less a month, I swear to myself not to waste time surfing the internet anymore. I'm quite addicted and it's hard to control my withdrawal so I broke the promise.

As I surfing and cruising the internet, reading blogs and watching videos in you tube, I found a blog that promote the readers to watch movie titled GADOH.

i spent about two hours tonight just to watch the movie. and you know, usually i will feel guilty after spending hours for internet, but not tonight. I feel content by just watching it. Even though the storyline is simple, but it still worth it. Some of us are still ignorant about this issue even though we have lived together for decades. so I hope this movie will open our eyes on how others see us and also on how we see them and thus will correct our and their false impression. And even if it is true, we can still improve ourselves so that others will never look down on us again.

lets move towards unity and correct the misunderstanding between us.
Peace..

Gadoh part 1

Daymn!!!

2009-08-06T19:05:00.003+08:00

First day going to ward hospital already makes my day so frustrated. All are good until one of the patient's file was not at the place it should be. My friend and I went to the nurse wearing blue uniform there to ask for the file.
I'm so unlucky since i don't know what the file's name is. so i said to the nurse it's the first i'm going there I'm so unfamiliar with the stuff there. the nurse insisted to know what's my answer, so i asked the seniors. but she still didn't want to accept the answer. WTF!!.
and i also got scolded for calling her 'kak', well fine i changed to 'cik', still i got scolded. and she continued her babbling where i feel like i really want to shut her mouth up. It's really fucking annoying. just correct me if I'm wrong, there's no need for you to raise your so fucking annoying voice to me. i can hear you.
I told this story to my lecturer and she said just ask her: "how should i address you, datin??". really, there is no need to be so arrogant with the color of uniform you are wearing. you are still human just like me, and you are Muslim for god sake. act like Muslim, correct me with hikmah. i will be more than happy to accept it.
My roommate who is medic student told me that i should call the nurse as 'sister'. what the heck!! Sister in Malay is kakak!! fool...

fuuh, lega gila.. kurang pahala puase aku hari ni..

Hari pengguna

2009-07-28T05:23:00.006+08:00

A few days after semester begun, my friend came and invited me to be paramedic in one big event at padang MPK. Even though I know nothing about paramedic things, I agreed since it seems interesting. So being paramedic there, I saw a lot of things that make me concern.

Case I
Since the games have not yet started, my friends and I sit under canopy. The event started with lagu Negaraku which is loud enough to be heard by people at the field. I saw some people did stand up to respect the song. I also did the same.
However, I don't know why, I looked stupid in front of my friends. They giggled and stayed seated until the end.
Seriously, what's wrong with you guys. It doesn't matter if you proBN or pro-opposition, you still need to respect and love your motherland.
If you don't who else?? Do I need to tell you why??

Case II
I don't like cigarettes and seriously I really hate the smell. If you want to smoke just go ahead.
but before that look around you, who are there. If you don't care what will cigarette do to you, at least care what will it do to people surrounding you.
I'm lucky because I'm wearing tudung all the time, so I can prepare to cover my mouth and my nose whenever smoking smokers are around me. At least I can filter some particles from entering my lung and affecting my health.
See, how convenient tudung can be.

Case III
As a muslim, one is obliged to pray 5 times a day which are subuh, dzuhur, asar, maghrib and Isya'. So my friends and I will rotate to do dzuhur prayer while some stay at padang MPK. Coming back from prayer, my friends told me that one of pakciks, which is committee for the event complaining about the absence of some of us.
Ok fine. Then my friend explained that we go to pray.
If it was me, I will add "pakcik ni uzur ke tak sembahyang??".
Seriously, being a committee for big big event doesn't exclude you from you obligation. Unless you exclude yourself and prepared for the coming promised day.

Arthur Rubinstein:
"Love life and life will love you back. Love people and they will love you back."

Missing kitten

2009-07-25T02:19:00.005+08:00

My mom called hours before and we chatted for a while. Suddenly my mom said she has something to tell me but she hesitated to let me know. She told me my new kitten, Oyen went missing. he hasn't came back for two days. My mom did look around our house, but he was nowhere to be found. The day before i asked my mom about my kittens, and my mom said they are all sound because she didn't want to let me down. Maybe he was picked by neighbors who find Oyen is so manja and so cute with his black collar bell. I'm a bit sad but there is nothing I can do. I just hope he finds a very good new owner, who will shower him at least once a week, apply mite shampoo so that he wont get any, feed him with healthy, yummy cat food and bring him to vet if he is not well. I hope he can find way back to our house some day. It's good that I decided to go back home last week as it ended up the very last time I saw him. I surely will miss him so much.

We are all connected

2009-06-21T19:06:00.006+08:00

I feel compelled to write about this issue. Actually i want to keep it for independence day, but i think maybe now is the right time.

"We are all connected" - Peter Petrelli

Yes, we are all connected, linked with an invisible thread but we never care. What we care with our naked eyes, with our heartless heart are hatred, differences, colour, race, pride and so many things. Have you ever thought, why we are different? It because the world will be more colorful and interesting that way. And even though we are different we are yet similar. It's so frustrating when we are Malaysian, but we fight each other. Even more disappointing, we claim we are Muslim but we curse each other. How different can we be just because I am Malaysian and you are Indonesian. Please stop the anti Malaysia and anti Indonesia thing.

Let me tell you my story:
My father is Indonesian and my mother is Malaysian. They got married and have three children. My father named us:

Amalina
Atikah Malina
Ashaari Malina

If you notice, all my siblings have MALINA in our name. I once asked my father why he named us so. He proudly said :

MAL for Malaysia
INA for Indonesia

How' that?
So why do we fight? We are brothers.
If there are bad issues let the authorities solve it. They are chosen to do so, we just hope for the best.

And for the non-bumis, years before, i was not recognized as bumiputera because of my father's nationality. And you know, my mother has to spend thousands just for text book and school fees. and it sux. However, now i know that I'm bumiputera, it doesn't make any differences at all. It's still the same. If you work hard enough you will go forward and those who doesn't will be left behind. But still there are some Malays that think they are special so they don't have to struggle. It's really annoying. Hello people, please wake up. you are not special.

And for Iranian, please don't fight just because of political issues. Please realize who your real enemy are . Damn it, I'm so tired of these issues. All of these just show how idiot we are. You shed tears but others laugh at you. How sad.

As conclusion, my favorite song:

Peace for all..

CalciYum

2009-06-18T02:18:00.006+08:00

Ada satu perkara ni memang selalu sangat terjadi pada aku. Dari tahun ke tahun asyik berulang-ulang je. Tapi takpe, aku redha sajalah. Nak buat macam mana, dah memang kenyataan.

Jadi, aku cerita yang baru-baru ini sajalah:

Kes 1
Lokasi: Kelas karate
Bila : Tengah tunggu sensei

Aku : Dik, sensei sampai dah ke?
Budak perempuan: Belum. Kak, akak TINGKATAN berapa?
Aku : *tersenyum (perasan awet muda).Tekalah
Budak perempuan: Tingkatan 3
Aku : Salah. Akak dah 22 tahun (dengan hati berbunga-bunga sambil tersengih-sengih)
Budak Perempuan: La yeke. TINGGI nak dekat sama je dengan saya.
Aku : *Cet punya budak. Perli nampak

Kes 2
Lokasi: Kenduri doa selamat
Bila : selesai makan, nak salam dengan makcik tuan rumah

Mak Aku : Ha.. Ni la anak sulung saya.
Makcik Tuan rumah: Belajar mana, TINGKATAN berapa?
Aku & Mak aku : *tersengih2
Mak Aku : UIA, tahun 2.
Makcik Tuan Rumah: Oo.. Tingkatan 2
Mak Aku : Bukan, tua dah, 22 tahun.
Makcik Tuan Rumah: Lailahaillallah...
Aku : *sengih jelah..

*Sigh
So apa yang boleh aku buat, sabo jelah. Yela, dah ayah dan mak aku bagi recessive trait untuk tinggi, terima jelah seadanya.

Apsal la Calciyum tak wujud lagi time aku muda2 dulu.

3 dalam 1

2009-05-20T18:03:00.000+08:00

3 dalam satu bukan shampu mahupun kopi tahu tapi aku mahu cerita 3 kejadian yang berlaku pada minggu lepas

Kejadian 1 - Langgar lari

Pada pukul 2 pagi sabtu lepas di Kuantan, sebuah kereta BMW hitam yang tak sempat nak brek ketika lampu isyarat merah telah menyondol kereta kelisa putih di hadapannya di mana berada sebelah kereta yang aku naiki. Disebabkan inertia yang tinggi, kereta Kelisa tersebut tertolak ke hadapan dan telah memberi ruang untuk kereta BMW itu cabut lari. Namun oleh kerana pemandu kereta BMW itu agak lembap melarikan diri, aku berjaya menghafal no plat kereta tersebut. Apa lagi, aku pun bagitau lah pada pemandu kereta Kelisa. Padan muka. Kalau tertangkap 3 kesalahan boleh didakwa: langgar lampu isyarat merah, langgar kereta depan dan cabut lari pulak tu.

Pengajaran: 1. kalau agak2 rasa nak langgar lari kereta orang, cabut la no plat kereta tu awal2.
2. kalau refleks anda lembap, toksah larilah. Terima jelah hakikat anda kena bayar ganti rugi

Kejadian 2 - PLKN

Ketika di Kuantan, tiba-tiba ayahku menelpon:

Ayah: Ca'i mana?
Aku: Kat umah la, Ina kat kuantan ni. Nape?
Ayah: Ada surat sampai. Ca'i kena pegi PLKN
Aku: Apa?!!

Hahaha. begitulah ceritanya. Sejak PLKN ni dimulakan, macam2 hal kedengaran. Ada yang tak boleh pergi sebab ada anak kecil lah, kena sara keluarga lah. Padaku, sepatutnya pihak PLKN perlu ambil tahu siapa yang dia panggil. Memanglah pemilihan peserta dilakukan secara rawak, Tapi janganlah pula main tembak. Tembak-tembak tak kena sasaran buat apa. Kan menyusahkan orang. Membazir duit pos dan tiket bas pulak tu. kalau penyelidikan terperinci tentang peserta dilakukan terlebih dahulu, bukankah lebif efisien.

Ini yang aku maksudkan perbuatan berulang-ulang.

Cuba bayangkan ca'i pakai baju PLKN sambil terlompat-lompat.
Adeh.. sakit perut ketawa.

Kejadian 3 - Silap cakap

Aku pulang semula ke Terengganu hari Ahad 6.30 petang, tapi bas ekspres Transnasional datang pukul 7 malam (1/2 jam tu aku tunggu). Oleh kerana hari tu aku cuma ambil lunch, pedih perut menahan lapar sepanjang 4 jam perjalanan. Sebaik sampai, aku minta ibuku singgah di Noodle Station- salah satu restoran feveret aku di bandar K.T. Niat hati nak bungkus mi kari. Masuk2 je aku dengan yakinnya bertanya:

Aku: Bang, take over boleh?
Abang kedai: ha?
Aku: Take over, boleh tak?
Abang kedai: ??? (buat muka bingung)
Aku: (apsal orang ni cam blur je, ahh bahasa melayu jela)
Bungkus2, boleh tak
Abang kedai: Oo.. boleh2.

Sambil aku menunggu pesanan, aku pun berfikir, Apsal la orang tu blur dengar aku cakap. Salah cakap ke. Tapi take over tu bukan ambil alih ke. kalau bukan take over ape pulak ek? Puas berfikir aku tak jumpa perkataan sepatutnya.

Keesokannya, tengah breakfast tiba-tiba aku teringat. La.. take away rupanya. Ceh buat malu je. Aku sambung breakfast sambil tersengih-sengih.

Dilema Cik H

2009-05-10T03:09:00.003+08:00

Kali ini aku mahu meluahkan kerunsingan aku mengenai satu makhluk Allah ni - Helminths ataupun aku gelar cik H

Trauma
Semenjak kecil lagi aku memang dah takut pada cik H. Semuanya bermula begini: Aku dulu dibesarkan di kawasan kampung di sungai buluh, Selangor. Ayah aku tukang rumah waktu tu. Tau-tau jelah tukang rumah, rumah orang dia siapkan rumah sendiri ala-ala kadar jelah.Jadi kadang-kadang ade jugak terjumpa dengan cik H ni kat bilk air, selalu aku sembur je air. Hanyut lah dia.
Satu hari aku nak memberus kasut sekolah guna berus sabut. Tengah syok memberus, tiba-tiba aku perasan ade benda tenung aku. Rupa-rupanya cik H tengah mengintai aku di sebalik berus sabut tuh. Ha, menjerit sakan aku dibuatnya.
Semenjak hari tu, aku tak berani nak tengok gmbar cik H. Malah, berus sabut pun aku tak pernah pegang smpai sekarang. Masa belajar microb aku memang tak baca langsung pun pasal helminth. Tu pasal result pun teruk.

Assignment
Beberapa hari lepas, pharmacist tempat aku buat praktikal suruh aku buat research pasal antihelminth. Punyalah aku berhati-hati meng'google' supaya tak terserempak dengan cik H. Lepas aku present, pharmacist ni pun tambahlah sedikit sebanyak pasal anthelminth. Katanya perlu ambil setahun sekali dan tiada alternatif lain. Tergamam aku dibuatnya.

Deworm
Aku sebenarnya sudahbanyak kali berfikir panjang pasal benda ni. Tak makan ubat bahaya, makan pulak takut. Mau nangis aku dibuatnya. Aku tak sanggup menghadapi kemyataan yang aku perlu expel kan cik H dari GIT aku. aku amatlah takut dan amatlah geli. Kenapalah habitat kau di GIT wahai cik H. Aku lebih rela dibedah.... Apa patut aku buat.... wuhuhu...

Cet Betul!!!

2009-05-05T19:05:00.008+08:00

Evolusi MIRC
Waktu aku mula-mula kenal internet, memang aku ketagih nak berchatting. Biasenye aku chat kt mirc je sebabnya waktu tu aku tak reti english lagi. Lama-lama aku rase bosan. Habis je chatting aku selalu rasa tak dapat apa2 pun.Buang masa je borak dengan orang tak kenal.
Lepas tu pulak aku terjumpa channel untuk main kuiz kat mirc. Melekat la aku kt laptop semata-mata nak dapatkan markah kuiz paling tinggi. Tapi aku tak boleh bagi komitmen sebab aku semakin sibuk.
Last-last aku guna mirc untuk download manga. Punya aku bersungguh-sungguh belajar sendiri camne nak download guna irc. Agak rumit jugak. Sekarang ni pun aku dah lupa caranya macam mane. Tapi oleh kerana dah ade jalan lagi mudah nak download, aku pun tinggalkan je la mirc ni. Tak guna-guna.

Semalam yang bosan
Bosan main internet, aku tetiba teringat kt kuiz mirc. Rasa rindu nak main semula. Aku pun masukla mirc. Tetiba aku tersedar yang aku terlupa la pulak channel ape. Spoil betul. Disebabkan rasa nak main yang membuak-buak, aku pun masukla #kampung. Niat hati nak tanya sape2 yang tahu channel mane nak main kuiz. adela mamat-mamat mane tah nak chat. Mula-mula layan gakla tetiba mulala diorang ni melencong nak ajak buat maksiat. Sengal betul. Syaitan n iblis ni memang ramai share internet dengan manusia kot. Bila aku malas nak layan mulala diorang ni sumpah-seranah, kata aku sakitkan hati diorang. Sungguh aku pelik, tu belum aku ceramah lagi, baru ignore. Memang sudah akhir zaman dunia ni, manusia terang-terangan dan tak malu-malu nak buat maksiat. Nak masuk neraka pun sendiri-sendiri dahla. Heiya. Last-last aku tak jumpa jugak channel yang aku cari. Tapi dapatla satu laman web main game: www.y3.com. Takdela keciwa sangat.

Akhirnya nak dekat maghrib aku try je taip channel #kuiz. Alhamdulillah jumpa akhirnya. Banyak betul cabaran nak main kuiz nih. Kena berusaha dapatkan markah tinggi nih. Basya!!

*aku: ei kucing, jangan la lompat2 kt depan laptop aku. aku nak taip cmne??
kucing taip: p=v-= .v [[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[?

meoongggggggg (bunyi kene lempar)

saja nak selit gamba:

kucing bergayut

kucing tengah merenung nasib

macam kalah kt medan perang

Aku mahu kamu

2009-04-24T16:29:00.006+08:00

Oh modem,
Macam mane aku nak mengharungi hari-hari mendatang tanpamu...
Sesungguhnya modem
Engkaulah penghubung aku dan dunia
Tanpamu modem..
Bagaimana mahuku download manga2 dan anime
Bagaimana mahuku baca manga online
Bagaimana mahuku bace blog iiumrx6th
Bagaimana mahuku update blog voices in my head
Apatah lagi tanpamu modem
Bagaimana caranya mahuku bermain friendster dan yahoo messenger
Sesungguhnya modem
Cyber cafe tidak setanding dirimu
Kerna bayaran tidak setanding khidmat yang aku terima
Modem..
Sunguh kau amat penting pada diriku
Sesungguhnya hanyalah engkau yang kumahu
Tetapi apakan dayaku wahai modem
Fulusku di akaun bank semakin mendikit hari demi hari
Yakni aku tidak mampu memilikimu wahai modem
Tunggulah bila JPA scholarship masuk nanti
Kau tetap akan kumiliki
Oh modem...
Sungguh aku mahu kamu

Aku mahu MODEM.... Uhuk.. sedihnya.

Tidak sempurna

2009-04-19T00:00:00.004+08:00

Selesai sudah satu episod dalam hidup aku. Perasaan aku memang bercampur-baur. Aku gembira ia sudah berakhir, tapi kurasakan masih ada yang tidak sempurna, banyak cela dimana-mana.

Semuanya bermula dengan lancar. Aku masih dapat mengikut rentak walaupun masa terasa terlalu terhad dengan tugas dan tanggungjawab yang menggunung walaupun role aku tidaklah sebesar mana. Namun pabila banyak unsur-unsur yang mnyebabkan aku hilang minat dan hilang konsentrasi, aku mula hilang rentak. Semua kurasakan tidak significant lagi. Aku mula menjalani saki-baki sem half-heartedly. Kurasakan badan, mental dan rohani semakin lesu dan semangat yang kubina lenyap ditelan masa. Aku mula terfikir: "Ah, Lantaklah". Tetapi, bukan itu yang aku mahu. Aku mahu mancari apa penawarnya, namun aku buntu. Bagaimana agaknya aku mahu mengekalkan motivasi, semangat dan minat agar sentiasa membara??

Aku tahu yang ikut rasa binasa dan ikut hati mati. Aku tahu yang hidup ini bukan seperti game yang boleh play again and again after game over. Kita hanya punya sekali peluang dalam hayat yang satu ini. Namun, apa patut aku buat pabila perasaan negatif mengatasi perasaan positif??

Pernah ku tanya pada sahabat, katanya perlu ada kekuatan diri. Tapi timbul persoalan baru. Dari mana harus kucari kekuatan itu?? Still, masih buntu

Kesimpulannya, aku kurang berpuas hati dengan prestasi aku semester ni.

Oleh kerana semester sudah berakhir, tamatlah sudah tanggungjawab aku. Seorang sahabat pernah berkata, sem ni agak kelam kabut. Jadi, aku minta maaflah pada segala kekurangan. Sesungguhnya aku sudah meletakkan sepenuh usaha. Itu sajalah yang aku dapat sumbangkan demi semua.

Kuharap sem depan aku lebih competent dan istiqamah. InsyaAllah..

Mourning, hiatus and tired

2009-04-04T19:33:00.006+08:00

Mourning

Life is short and one cannot survive without mother. That's what I conclude as one of my kitten died last week. This also applies to human as well. So do appreciate what you have and the person you love most before the time come.

Hiatus

Facing the longest season ever: final exam. Really hate this season. I feel the clock hands aren't moving at all. when this suffering will end. Urh.. Anyway, on hiatus right now.

Tired

As i'm tired facing the exam, i'm also tired of waiting and looking. It's already 2 years and nothing happens. I miss my Gi and really want to do kumite and kata. Guess i have to change from shito ryu to another ryu, seems like i have to start from nothing again. Geez, stop wasting my time.

Walk the talk

2009-03-18T10:57:00.010+08:00

Pengata 1: Kau tahu, tadi si polan buat macam tu, macam ni...
Pengata 2: Iye, nama je #######, tapi macam tu jugak..

Oleh kerana perbualan di atas sering berlaku dan juga atas permintaan, aku ingin menyeru: ''walk the talk, please!!"

Terutamanya jika kamu membawa imej tertentu. Kalau kamu hanya bercakap dan menyeru tapi kamu tidak laksanakan, memang orang akan kata kamu. Bukan kamu sahaja yang dikata, kelompok kamu juga akan terkena. Dan itu sudah dikira kamu membawa fitnah pada kelompok kamu. Kamu tahu, perkara kecil pun diambil kira. Dan kerana itu juga, khalayak akan hilang hormat pada kamu.

Bila kamu rasa kamu dikata jangan pula cepat melenting. Selidik dahulu diri kamu, mungkin ada yang tidak kena pada kamu yang kamu tidak sedar. Jika betul, kamu patut berterima kasih pada yang mengata, sekurang-kurangnya kamu boleh baiki diri semula. Kadangkala, kamu tahu mengapa kamu dikata? kerana kamu sepatutnya lebih bagus dari yang mengata, tapi kamu pula sebaliknya. Agak susahla mereka ni nak tegur kerana status kamu yang tinggi tu. Jadi, fikir-fikirkanlah.

Mesej ni aku sampaikan pada diri aku juga. Moga kita saling ingat mengingati.

Aku beranak??

2009-03-09T22:15:00.005+08:00

Takde ribut takde petir, tiba-tiba aku dikurniakan 3 anak!! Memang pelik dan ajaib. Semuanya bermula dengan satu perpisahan dan akhirnya diganti pula dengan pertemuan-pertemuan yang lain. Walaupun sebelum ni aku nekad tidak hendak, tapi kalau dah ditakdirkan dan dijodohkan, dapat juga. Oleh itu, marilah aku perkenalkan anak-anak aku nih:

Haha, macam mana? Comel bukan. Tapi, mereka ni masih belum bernama, kerana aku tiada idea lagi. Sape-sape yang bermurah hati, cadangkan la nama yang best lagi unik. Sekarang ni aku rasa macam ibu kehilangan anak, uhh… rindunya aku walaupun berpisah tak sampai sehari pun. Dapat dengar suara kat telefon pun masih tak mengubat rindu,aceh..

Cumanya aku bimbang diorang ni tak tahan lama sebabnya mereka ni baru lahir dan ditinggalkan ibu. Bukan manusia saja yang buang anak tahu. Kerana aku masih mentah dalam selok-belok menjadi ibu, aku memang buta bab-bab nak menyusukan diorang ni, lagi-lagi pula mereka ni tak nak minum susu cap tepung tu. Terpaksalah aku memberi mereka minum dengan cara paksaan dengan menggunakan picagari. Riuh satu rumah jadinya. Err, parenting ade ajar semua ni ke? Sape-sape yang expert dalam penjagaan newborn kitten ni, bagila tips-tips berguna. Moga-moga mereka dapat survive dan melepasi waktu-waktu kritikal mereka ni dan seterusnya dapat membesar menjadi seekor kucing yang berguna kelak. Err, ape maksud kucing yang berguna?? Ape2lah.

Keletihan selepas bergelut waktu dipaksa minum susu

**tikah, ni sume aku yang punye tau, wahaha**

Mahu tahu mengapa?

2009-03-05T13:33:00.003+08:00

Tahukah kamu, Islam dipandang hina di serata pelosok dunia. Jika kamu tidak tahu, sedarlah kamu. Kita sering berkata Islam agama paling sempurna, guna logik pun sudah tahu. Tapi mengapa masih ramai yang mengutuk dan menghina, tak berfikirkah mereka, takde akal ke?

Menurut pembacaan, mereka membenci bukan pada agama, tapi apa yang dilakukan oleh orang yang beragama. Jadi jelaslah yang memfitnah agama bukan orang lain, tapi kita sendiri yang membawa fitnah. Ayat di bawah aku petik dari sini:

"Lets take the whole world. Where do Muslims mostly reside? Afghanistan, Pakistan, India, Middle East, South Asia. Thats where the majority lives. Muslims in Afghanistan want peace, but at the cost of America. Muslims in Pakistan hate America and they openly admit it. Muslims in India, well they hate their own country and love Pakistan more. That, I've heard with my own goddamn ears. Not all of them of course, but most of them still wish to migrate to Pakistan to their "Muslim brothers". Muslims in Middle East play with riches, they don't have anything to do with America and any other country. In fact it is the opposite, their economy is more stable (they are not richer than America) than America. So, they don't have any reason to hate them. Muslims from South Asia fight among themselves all the time, so they don't have time to hate others."

Tidak terasakah kamu? Bukan hanya di south asia, di semua tempat muslim bertelagah. Sudah-sudahlah bertelagah isu yang seciput itu. Orang lain sudah ke bulan lama dahulu, kamu sama kamu masih di takuk lama, masih lagi bertengkar tak sudah-sudah. Cubalah keluar dari "the nothing box" tu, takkan ruginya..

*Jika kamu hebat agama, kenapa tidak kamu bidas pembenci dan pendebat yang menghina Islam di luar sana. Apa kata kita jadikan internet ni medan untuk menaikkan semula maruah yang dihina. Mungkin ada hasilnya..

Keceluparan

2009-03-04T16:35:00.003+08:00

Kadang-kadang memang aku selalu terlepas kata. Sudah terkata tak boleh nak buat apa. Agaknya aku perlu lebih berhati-hati bila berkata-kata. Malah sering aku ingatkan diri think before you speak. Tapi kadangkala impulse ke neuron di mulut lebih laju dari impulse pergi ke otak. Mungkin ada shot di mane-mane.

Namun padaku, kadangkala perlu juga kita bersuara. Kalau asyik pass saje, baik tak payah ade. Apapun, jika aku tersalah kata, mungkin teguran anda berguna. Terima kasih pada yang ade menegur.

Namun, mungkin ada juga baiknya atas keceluparan aku ini. Sekurang-kurangnya aku tidak cakap belakang, mengate-ngate. Tidak guna jika kamu mengumpat saja, akhirnya sendiri dapat dosa, masalah tak selesai juga. Disebabkan keceluparan aku juga, mungkin ada perubahan di masa mendatang. Tidak perlulah lagi kita memendam rasa. Harap-harap apa-apa yang dijanji dapat dikota.

Sebenarnya bukan aku mahu meng'attack' sape2. Cuma aku pernah suarakan pada yang sepatutnya, tapi dia pula malu-malu mahu jadi pengantara. Mungkin juga waktu itu suaraku dirasakan tidak sepenting mane. So aku gunalah medium yang tersedia. Mungkin cara aku tak kena, so maafla ye...

Inhaler for athma

2009-03-02T03:22:00.009+08:00

Disebabkan ayah aku menghidapi athma, aku dapat bayangkan betapa seksanya kalau serangan athma itu berlaku. Kalau ayah aku terkena serangan athma, satu rumah terkena lelahnya. Satu rumah boleh dengar betapa sukarnya dia nak nak bernafas dan terbatuk-batuk. Bunyi pernafasan itu dipanggil wheezing. Athma itu adalah suatu syndrom di mana salur pernafasan itu tersumbat disebabkan pengecutan bronchus dan juga rembesan mukus.
Secara umumnya, ada 2 jenis ubat yang diindikasikan untuk athma iaitu

bronchodilator - beta2 receptor agonists, xanthines, muscarinic receptor antagonists
anti-inflammatory agent- glucocorticoids, cromoglicate, leukotriene receptor antagonists

Apa yang perlu kamu tahu adalah

beta2 receptor agonists adalah 1st line drugs diikuti dengan xanthines dan muscarinic receptor agonists iaitu 2nd line drugs
perlu diingat, glucocorticoids inhibit enzyme phospholipase A dan leukotriene inhibit receptor leukotriene.
kalau mahu senang, lihat gambar di bawah
oral steroids hanya digunakan untuk severe athma kerana side effects yang serius

Disebabkan masa yang terlalu terhad dan kerja yang membukit dan menggunung, aku tak sempat cerita tentang inahaler jadi aku persembahkan video ini sahaja. Kepada para future pharmacists, termasuk juga doktor-doktor, ambil iktibar ye, jangan ambil sambil lewa sahaja. Ia sangat penting okay..

Yang ditunggu-tunggu

2009-02-26T01:58:00.004+08:00

Beberapa tahun yang lepas, aku terbaca di KREKO tentang pembikinan movie ni. Aku sungguhlah teruja. Tak sabar aku nak tunggu citer ni keluar cinema. Lebih-lebih lagi movie ni hasil kerja Steven Chow dan salah seorang pelakonnya adalah Chow Yun Faat. Kebanyakan manga and anime yang diorangkan ceritanya gagal memenuhi cita rasa aku. Harap-harap kali ni, movie yang diorangkan setanding dengan prestasi manga dan anime. Waha... tak sabarnya aku..

Tiada yang mustahil

2009-02-24T21:49:00.002+08:00

Baru saja pulang dari perjalanan yang jauh ku kira, banyak sekali pengalaman dan pengajaran yang aku terima. Banyak sekali motivasi dan aspirasi yang boleh aku serap dan guna pakai dalam mengharungi kehidupan seharian dan yang mendatang, lagi-lagi di masa-masa kritikal seperti sekarang. Kepenatan dan keletihan yang menggigit-gigit seperti mahu membuatkan aku putus asa dan lari dari realiti hidup. Mujurlah aku ini seorang Muslim yang punya tempat pergantungan pada Yang Esa. Terasa beban di bahu tidak seberat yang disangka. Kalau dulu di kala penat dan sengal aku masih boleh guna Menza ataupun Counter Pain. Tapi penat yang ku rasa kini bukan hanya fizikal malah mental dan rohani turut merasa lelahnya. Salah satu kata-kata azimat yang aku dapat: 'tiada apa yang mustahil'. Aku bawakan kisah mereka. Baca sendirilah, aku penat sekarang.
Baca ini dan ini.

Lozenges

2009-02-18T20:18:00.000+08:00

Seperti yang pelajar-pelajar farmasi sedia maklum, lozenges adalah sejenis dosage form di mana ianya dimasukkan ke dalam mulut dan seterusnya dihisap. Untuk makluman, ia tidak megandungi disintegrant dan bahan aktifnya diincorporate into sugar base seperti sukrosa dan glukosa. Ia bertujuan untuk mengubati mulut dan juga tekak.

Kali ini apa yang aku mahu tekankan adalah bagaimana cara lozenges digunakan. Aku bawakan kisah seorang kenalan yang merupakan seorang pelajar perubatan yang namanya perlu dirahsiakan. Kisah ini berlaku pada ramadhan yang lepas. Kenalan mengadu yang dia demam dan sakit tekak dan meminta ubat daripada aku kalau ada. Aku pun cek tengok simpanan ubat. Nampaknya lozenges masih ada. Aku pun beritahu kenalan yang ubat itu adalah lozenges untuk sakit tekak.

Keesokan hari sewaktu sahur, kami makan bersama-sama. Kenalan ini pun bersiap-siap mahu makan ubat. Aku biar sajalah. Tiba-tiba:

Kawan A : Eh ko makan ubat apa tu?
Kenalan : Lozenges untuk sakit tekak, kenapa?
Kawan A : Lozenges? yang ko telan buat ape? bukan kene hisap ke?
Kenalan: Eh ye ke? apsal tak bagitau awal-awal. Mana aku tau
Aku: La.. ingatkan da tau. Kalau telan, sia-sialah makan ubat tu. Site of action dia kat tekak, bukannya perut atau usus... apalah awak ni.

Disebabkan ke'tidak tahu'an kenalan, sampai sekarang kalau ada peluang aku akan mengusik si kenalan ni.

Maka kesimpulannya, sebelum ambil apa-apa ubat pun, baca arahan dan indikasi ubat tersebut. Kalau tidak, tiada maknanya anda telan banyak-banyak tapi active ingredient tak sampai ke site of action. Maka, anda perlu ingat dan tahu yang lozenges perlulah diHISAP dan bukan diTELAN.

Hikmah di sebalik

2009-02-17T17:58:00.002+08:00

Oleh kerana semalam aku tidur lebih awal daripada biasa, aku pun bangun lebih awal daripada biasa. Usai solat subuh, aku pun berkobar-kobar bersiap awal kononnya nak pergi kelas awallah. Tengah aku kalut bersiap, aku pun terlanggarlah wayar laptop. Tup! terus mati laptop nih. Aku pun biar jela. Aku pun teruslah pergi kelas, singah sekejap kat surau konon nak study sebab masih awal. Aku pun buka la laptop.

Entah apa silapnya, aku tak boleh connect ke internet kerana katanya device not detected. Aku pun pening kepala memikirkan sampai kat kelas pun tak boleh nak khusyuk. Aku terpaksa ponteng 1 kelas sebab nak balik ambil installer. Aku uninstall and install kembali, still tak boleh jugak. Aku tanya pendapat kawan-kawan. Kata mereka maybe sim card yang rosak. maka lepas habis kelas aku pun terus lah pergi Celcom Center, mengharapkan sim card la yang rosak. Di celcom center, orang yang cek nampak macam tak pro je, last-last aku sendiri mintak sim card yang elok, dan cubala pada data card aku ni. Tapi malangnya, masih tak boleh. Jadi aku simpulkan, maybe data card kot yang rosak. Perasaan aku berbaur-baur, sedih ada, bersyukur pun ada. Sedihnya bukan apa, assignment banyak nak kena buat, tapi rosak la pulak modem nih. Tapi takpelah, mungkin ada hikmah di sebaliknya. Nak gembirakan hati, aku pun senaraikan kebaikan disebalik kerosakan data card ni:

Boleh kurangkan dosa
Takde godaan yang boleh menyebabkan aku melengah-lengahkan solat
Lebih banyak masa buat benda lain seperti study dan lain-lain
Jimat duit
Duit tu boleh aku beli komik, banyak dah aku tertinggal
Boleh tidur awal
Boleh ganti masa internet dengan beriadah
Tak leka depan komputer lagi. komputer ni bukannya elok pun, merosakkan mata ade

Tapi still aku rasa ralat sebabnya:

Lagi 2 minggu assignment nak kena hantar, terganggu la sikit
Jarang la aku buka blog kelas, ape lagi nak post ape2
Berkepuk la blog aku nih. maybe aku buat draft dulu, kat KOM baru aku post

Takpelah, kebaikan takde internet lebih banyak daripada kebaikan ade internet. Sebelum ni memang aku nak terminate pun, tapi tak jadi2. Mmungkin Allah nak tolong kot. Positive2.

Stupid analogy

2009-02-16T19:08:00.008+08:00

As a pharmacist to be, I often advice my relatives about the danger of smoking. Moreover when the ulama' all around the world have already agreed that smoking is prohibited. As always, mankind tends to resist something that is not convenient to them. They always like to oppose and find excuses when the truth slaps on their face and hurts them.

This is a story regarding their resistant to accept the truth.

One of my relative aka si jejaka come up with one analogy in order to shut my mouth from criticize him. He equalizes cigarette with motorcycle where he said that even though riding motorcycle is dangerous, the parents still buy it for their children. He then compared from statistical view from unknown source of the death caused by riding motorcycle is much greater than smoking. WTF!!!

When i heard this, i was like petrified. Are you stupid or something? They don't even have things in common except they release smoke.
So here i made comparison between cigarette and motorcycle. Please don't be confused:

There are many other differences. Do think before you make stupid and nonsense argument. What you say will reflect your IQ level. And because of your low level IQ, i will look down more at you.

His Sorrow

2009-02-15T23:57:00.005+08:00

Jam 10 malam ibuku menelefon. Katanya sepupuku punya masalah mengisi borang on line PTPTN. kerana aku perihatin, aku pun menghubungi adik sepupuku itu.

Setelah memeriksa dan menyelidik apa yang patut, nampaknya masalah itu di luar kemampuan aku. Maka aku sarankan dia telefon saja PTPTN. Okay, selesai satu hal.

Kerana aku ambil berat, aku pun bertanyakan kehidupan barunya di Politeknik Pulau Pinang tu.

Jawapan yang kuterima agak menyedihkan aku. Katanya dia cuma makan mi segera untuk beberapa hari kerana perlu berjimat. Keadaan keluarganya yang agak susah membuatkan dia berat hati mahu meminta wang dari keluarga. Wang yang ada sekarang pun hanyalah saki baki simpanan wang gaji kerjanya semasa cuti lepas SPM. Katanya lagi dia tidak tahu dari mana harus dia cari wang jika wang tersebut habis digunakan. Peralatan tulis yang dia ada hanyalah sebatang pen dan sebatang pensel. Katanya dia berputih mata melihat kawan sebiliknya yang lebih senang, punya laptop dan bermacam-macam lagi. Oleh itu, dia amat berharap permohonan pinjaman PTPTN diluluskan. Kalau tidak, dia memang tidak boleh survive.

Bila mendengar semua ini aku jadi kelu, terkedu dan mati akal. Kalau dia tak cerita, sungguh aku tak tahu. Aku mahu memberi nasihat pun rasanya tidak layak. Mana tidaknya, aku ini sangat pemboros. Tiba-tiba terbit rasa keinsafan. Aku terfikir, berapa banyak wang sudah aku bazirkan kali ini. Tentunya bukan hanya ratusan. Aku kemudiannya merasakan betapa mewahnya hidup aku selama ini. Apa yang aku mahukan pasti aku kecapi, cuma cepat atau lambat saja. Jikalau sebelum ini aku asyik melihat orang yang lebih senang, rupa-rupanya masih ada yang di bawah dan lebih susah. Aku serius menyesal beli jam baru itu. Tidak perlu pun sebenarnya. Kenapalah dia tak telefon sebelum aku beli.

Apa yang aku boleh nasihatkan padanya hanyalah bersabar. Pintalah pertolongan daripada Allah kerana sesungguhnya rezeki Allah itu sentiasa ada. Malah ujian yang DIA berikan berkadar langsung dengan keupayaan hambaNYA.
Aku katakan lagi padanya, sesungguhnya bukan senang nak senang. Untuk mendapat sesuatu, kamu perlu bayar harga yang setimpal. Dan harganya berbeza untuk setiap individu
Kukatakan lagi, kalau mampu, kurangkan peruntukan wang rokoknya. Masih ada yang lebih penting daripada asap dan api yang kamu sedut.
Dan lagi, aku minta maaf, kalau aku mampu aku tolong. Tapi aku ini pun mengharap ehsan JPA. Jadi aku cuba tolong cara lain ya.

Cebisan Yang Hilang

2009-02-14T06:51:00.015+08:00

still not enough

Usai saja peperiksaan, aku pastas menilai yang usaha aku masih belum cukup. Pastinya ada kekurangan di mana-mana. Aku mula mencari dan menyelidik di mana celanya. Sebelum kelas, aku sudah buat pre-study supaya pembelajaran esoknya tidak terlalu asing. Di kelas pula, aku cuba pastikan aku faham semuanya walaupun ada subjek yang perlu difahami lebih mendalam. Aku juga sudah mengulangkaji apa yang aku pelajari di dalam kelas sebelum musim peperiksaan tiba. Malah, aku cuba ungkitkan persoalan-persoalan yang perlukan kemahiran akal. Jika sempat, aku akan mencari lebih maklumat dari buku-buku rujukan. Aku juga sudah kurangkan masa aku dari 50% study buku, 50% study komik ke 80% study buku, 20% study komik. Namun, semuanya masih belum cukup. Aku bingung. Di mana kurangnya?

the missing piece

Beberapa kebarangkalian muncul di minda aku. Aku rasalah sebab utama mungkin ke'kurang bergantung'an aku pada Yang Esa. Aku akui, banyak peristiwa menyebabkan aku lebih percayakan logik daripada rohani. Aku lebih selesa pada objektif daripada subjektif. Maka aku kurang beri perhatian pada hati. Aku perlu berusaha supaya aku lebih dekat padaNYA dan lebih banyak bergantung padaNYA. Aku sedar, DIAlah penentu segala.

Aku perlu sedar usaha aku saja aku tidak akan mampu. Ada kuasa lain yang lebih besar yang menentukan. Sesungguhnya, usaha + tawakkal + doa + redha barulah ada keberkatan.

Setelah melalui pahit getir dalam seminggu ini, aku juga sedar, belajar berkumpulan lebih efektif dan lebih tahan lama. Maka aku mahu laksanakan strategi baru. Aku mahu mulakan belajar berkumpulan. Bukan aku saja dapat manfaatnya, orang lain pun terima hasilnya. Aku juga mahu mencipta kod-kod rahsia untuk subjek yang memerlukan tahap ingatan yang tinggi. aku memang fail bab hafal-menghafal ni. Dari pemerhatian dan pengalaman, cara begini lebih menyeronakkan. Oh ya, terima kasih pada pencipta-pencipta kod yang kreatif, kod anda memang membantu, tapi perlu masa nak decipher kod2 tersebut.

Moga aku terus tabah mengharungi separuh semester lagi.
Moga aku tabah menerima keputusan exam nanti.
Yang sudah berlalu biarkan berlalu, di depan banyak lagi yang menanti.

Equivalent

2009-02-09T17:56:00.005+08:00

I came to know the principle of equivalent trade after watching FMA several years ago. The principle is quiet simple, and I believe every nations in the world has already been adaptable to the principle. Simply said, the concept is if you want something, you have to pay the price. Even an Arab saying says: man jadda wajada

Quoted from FMA:

"The principle of equivalent trade states that to gain something, you must present something of equal value"

"People cannot gain anything without sacrifices"

"We cannot create something from nothing"

"You can only create something of a certain mass from the same mass"

"A person cannot gain something without losing something"

Even if we recall what we learned from secondary school, physic and chemistry also apply this law. For example in conservation of energy and stoicheomistry. It can also be called as the the law of conservation.

However, there are some cases where this law doesn't apply. As the law said you pay for what you gain, it also means you gain something after you pay. But it is strange that some people has to pay more than the others but in the end, he doesn't gain anything in return.

Just think about examination, people make efforts to pass the exam but some still don't get as much as what they pay. The achievement between people is also different even though they pay the same price.Take another example, JPA scholarship to oversea, many students applied but only few can pass. Why is that so?

Does it mean there is no fairness in this world? So why bother struggling if in the end you end up with nothing? What's the point of reading if you end up forgetting at time in need?

Bila fikir-fikir, ni yang malas aku nak study nih.... Urgh.. 5 days to go..

Hiatus

2009-02-02T20:58:00.004+08:00

I'm so relief after I have successfully finished reading Hunter X Hunter. That means, there will be no distraction during mid semester exam. As Hunter X Hunter is still undergoing hiatus since December 2008, I decided to be on hiatus state for some time.

My convictions:

No Onemanga
No Mangafox
No games
No loitering
Spend time to the fullest for exam
Never give up

*habis exam, aku mula semula

My hopes:

Moga aku tenang walau kalut
Moga aku sihat walau tenat
Moga aku sabar walau ribut
Moga aku bangun walau rebah
Moga aku celik walau pejam

Khalayak,
Jika ada kelancangan,
Jika ada kesalahan,
Jika ada kekurangan,
Jika ada kecacatan...

Maafku pinta, kerna aku manusia juga. Hahaha

p.s: Da nak exam, baru nak mintak maaf.

Kebagusan

2009-02-01T10:24:00.006+08:00

Walaupun exam sudah dekat, aku masih sempat melayan komik Hunter X Hunter. Yang susahnya, bila sudah mula baca, memang susah nak berhenti. Lagi-lagi bila internet ni laju je. Bagi aku yang minat hasil karya Yoshihiro Togashi ni, komik dia memang serius best, walaupun lukisan dia macam lakaran saje. Tengah aku asyik membaca, satu dialog menarik perhatian aku:

Jadi, pilihlah pemimpin yang bagus kerana pemimpin yang bagus akan membawa kepada kebagusan.

Urh.. sesape, tolong stopkan aku. tangan aku meng'click' secara automatik. tak boleh nk kawal..

Pabila DIA menipu

2009-01-28T23:28:00.005+08:00

Aku sudah banyak kali ditipu orang. Terlalu banyak. Mungkin kerana aku kurang cerdhik maka mereka mengambil kesempatan ke atas aku. Namun aku bukan mahu menghikayatkan kisah aku. Ini kisah mereka yang mana ditipu oleh si DIA.

Si DIA aku maksudkan bukan siapa-siapa. Si DIA orang berilmu, orang beragama dan jika naik pangkat sedikit boleh jadi pewaris nabi. Si DIA aku maksudkan di sini adalah seorang ustaz.

Kisah satu:
Seorang kenalan datangnya dari seberang. Niat di hati ingin mencari rezeki di negeri orang. Dengan menggunakan visa sebagai pembantu rumah, sukar untuknya bekerja mencari rezeki tambahan. Kemmudian datanglah seorang DIA ingin menghulurkan bantuan. Katanya punya anak bekerja di JPN, bolehlah menolong sedikit sebanyak. Tapi perlu RM2k sebagai pengerasnya. Oleh kerana si DIA orang beragama, kenalan ini percaya dan membayar wang pengeras bernilai RM2k tersebut. Malangnya si DIA hilang entah ke mana, janji terbang ke awan, wang tiada jumpa. Laralah hati si kenalan. Bukan kerana wang yang hilang, tapi kerana dikhianati oleh si DIA.

Kisah dua:
Seorang kenalan tiada bertemu jodoh sehingga umurnya agak lanjut, tidaklah sampai 40-an. Datang seorang DIA ingin mengetemukan kenalan dengan seorang jejaka. Katanya datang dari keluarga baik-baik, anak orang berugama pula. Bapa dan ibu si jejaka orang kuat parti politik agama. Hati mana yang tidak rawan bila diketemukan teruna seperti itu. Maka dua mempelai disatukan. Bahagia selamanya?
Tidak. Kerana pecahlah tembelang si jejaka. Mana tidaknya, rupanya si jejaka tidak sempurna rukun islamnya, hobinya yang haram-haram belaka. Malah di rumah juga tidak selamat, mana tidaknya, ada pencuri di dalam rumah.
Kalau aku senang saja. Tamat, habis cerita. Namun kenalan sudah punya dua anak, masih kecil pula. Harus ditimbang baik dan buruk sesuatu keputusan. Kini hidup diibaratkan seperti membela buaya hidup, tidak punya faedah malah sia-sia jua.

Kesimpulannya:
Si DIA, tolonglah jangan cemar gelaran mulia itu. Kamu punya tanggungjawab yang besar, jangan kerana kamu, satu agama terpalit arang.

Kenalan 1, jangan senang-senang menghulur wang, tidak kira siapa dia. Jangan terpedaya walaupun si DIA mengeksploitasi nama tuhan dan agama

Kenalan 2, selidik bakal suami anda. Orang tengah terbukti tidak semestinya terjamin. Iman juga tidak diwarisi.

Si jejaka, sesungguhnya aku benci kamu. Jangan tipu aku CAVETRA itu ubat sakit pinggang. Aku lebih pakar.

Semoga khalayak mendapat iktibar..

Dunia baru

2009-01-25T01:41:00.005+08:00

Sedang aku sibuk membuang masa melayan internet, aku terdengar bunyi ombak malam yang berderu-deru dari arah pantai yang jaraknya tak sampai 5 minit. Suasana yang aku rasakan sangatlah asing bagi aku yang dari kecil tinggal di selangor. Kalau di Selangor, pantai terdekat pun adalah Pantai Dalam. Baru aku tersedar, dah jadi budak pantai rupanya aku ni.

Aku pun mula mencari perbezaan antara kehidupan aku dulu dan sekarang. Kalau dulu aku asyik terperuk di rumah melayan tv dan komputer kerana tak kenal jiran sekeliling, kini aku dikelilingi dengan adik-adik saudara yang masih kecil. Senang saja nak pilih mana satu aku nak buli. Kalau dulu aku berbelanja di Midvalley, Times Square dll, kini aku berbelanja di Mydin dan Giant (yang paling besar kat Terengganu tau). Kalau dulu aku makan keropok lekor yang penuh dengan tepung, kini keropok lekor yang aku jamah adalah pure kepok terengganu. Kalau rasa nak mandi laut, jalan saja 5 minit dah boleh terjun laut. Kalau difikirkan memang banyak lagilah yang berbeza. Ada yang lagi bagus, ada jugak yang kureng.

Apapun, kadang-kadang perubahan itu perlu untuk meneruskan hidup. Walaupun kita rasa tak seronok, tak suka tapi sebenarnya Allah lagi tahu. Apa yang kita rasakan baik untuk kita, tak semestinya baik bagi pandangan Allah, begitula jugak sebaliknya. Terokailah dunia baru itu, mana tahu, mungkin ada udang di sebalik mi (maksud aku bukan musuh dalam selimut tapi mutiara dalam kerang)- betul ke analogi aku nih.

Ps: baru saja bincang dengan kawan aku pasal Illuminati dan New world Order. Menarik tapi betul ke?

Limitasi

2009-01-22T14:19:00.005+08:00

Walaupun sekejap, akhirnya aku dapat bernafas semula selepas jenuh mengharungi kelas-kelas dan report-report yang tak habis-habis (aku tak amik parenting..huhu). Untuk masa yang sekejap ni jugak aku dapat meng'adjust' semula ventilation perfusion ratio aku maka dapatla aku mengelakkan ishemic di coronary artery, di mana aku juga dapat elak angina pectoris dan seterusnya myocardiac infarction. (betul ke ape aku cakap ni)

Namun, aku terfikir, sampai mana limitasi aku. Tidak sampai setengah semester aku mula merasa semput dan blockage di saraf-saraf otak aku. Dan aku dapat rase keupayaan otak aku untuk berfikir lebih jauh seperti disekat-sekat. Kelas yang berterusan mencabar keupayaan otak aku untuk mengadaptasi untuk kelas seterusnya. Aku terpaksa shut down dan reboot otak aku supaya ada ruang untuk ilmu baru diserap. Bila belajar pula kadang-kadang minda aku merewang merentasi dimensi dan sempadan memikirkan assignment, report dan revision yang aku perlu siapkan. Ditambah pula dengan lecturer yang tiba-tiba menyerang bertalu-talu dengan soalan mautnya. Aduhai, cuak jugak la aku. Tapi takpe, biar salah sekarang, jangan salah di kemudian hari (nak sedapkan hati).

Nampaknya aku perlu install hard disk baru yang punya lebih kapasiti untuk menyimpan data-data baru dan lama. Aku perlukan software ataupun signal modifier yang dapat menganalisis data-data tersebut dan mengaitkan data antara satu sama lain. Aku juga perlukan printer (atau seumpama dengannya) yang dapat menzahirkan signal yang dikesan oleh input tranducer. Ada jualkah komponen-komponen ni kat lowyatt, ataupun kat belakang Megamall? aku juga perlukan lebih daripada 24 jam sehari (nampak sangat time management yang lemah). tapi memang mustahil seperti kata-kata Dr. Abu "You cannot create time out of no time".

Apapun, moga-moga otak aku dapat relax secukupnya cuti empat hari nanti walaupun banyak kerja yang menanti. Moga-moga aku dapat bertahan sampai ke hujung semester. Moga-moga performance aku bertambah baik walaupun terpaksa berjuang di masa yang sempit. Moga-moga titik limitasi aku masih jauh. Ape2lah.

Shut up!!

2009-01-17T23:09:00.007+08:00

Even though Malaysia is a free country, recently I was told to shut my mouth up. So what do you think? Should I or shouldn't I?

Ps: I think I need to clarify something. I never take anyone's time because until now I never let my voice out when the time is over, unless your watch was set differently.

I wonder

2009-01-17T14:18:00.006+08:00

Blue for Israel
Red for Palestine

I wonder why Israel got so much love from USA and Europe people. I wonder why they hate Islam so much enough to kill the innocent people and deny their right. I wonder when this uncivilized act will end. I wonder which countries will be their next target. I wonder will Malaysia end up like Palestine. I wonder why I wonder... Geez..

Tahu vs Ingat 2

2009-01-16T01:23:00.002+08:00

Masih ingat kata-kata azimat

"Kalau saya ingat saya akan lupa
Kalau saya tahu dan faham saya takkan tak tahu dan takkan tak faham"

Daripada dahulu lagi aku lebih percaya yang memahami sesuatu adalah lebih efektif dan bermakna daripada mengingati sesuatu. Namun, harus aku akui untuk memahami bukanlah sesuatu yang mudah. Banyak usaha yang perlu dilakukan supaya sesuatu itu dirasakan logik dan masuk akal. Antaranya adalah banyakkan membaca dan meminta tunjuk ajar daripada guru. Dan dalam proses memahami sesuatu pasti ada topik yang susah difahami. Maka supaya proses pembelajaran berjalan lancar bertanyalah pada guru supaya tidak sesat di kemudian hari. Seperti peribahasa "malu bertanya sesat jalan".

Cuba anda bayangkan, apa rasanya seorang guru itu apabila dia tidak mendapat respons daripada muridnya. Mungkin dia berfikir "ah, sudah bijak rupanya" ataupun "tidak berminat agaknya" ataupun "faham ke tidak diorang ni". Maka, kadangkala untuk menunujukkan hormat pada seorang guru, bertanyalah ataupun berikan respons apabila ditanya. Mungkin ucapan "very good" daripada seorang guru itu merupakan satu doa. bukan itu saja, ia juga boleh memotivasikan diri kita untuk lebih rajin lagi.

Cuba bayangkan lagi, apakah rasanya belajar di dalam suasana yang sangat bosan dengan syarahan guru yang tidak habis-habis, di dalam bilik yang sejuk pula. Pasti ada saje kawan-kawan yang sudah menguap malah anda sendiri mungkin menguap sekali. Seperti kata-kata orang, menguap ni berjangkit. Bukankah lebih bagus jika kita meriahkan sikit suasana belajar, bukan nak tunjuk kita ni pandai. Cuma usaha kita supaya kelas tidaklah suram seperti tiada orang. Malah, bukankah komunikasi dua hala adalah lebih bermakna.

Mungkin anda perasan, di kalangan anda ade golongan yang berbeza. Selalunya yang berbeza ini selalu dicemuh dan dikata-kata. Namun tak semestinya yang berbeza itu tidak baik. Malah juga ada yang tidak baik pada orang yang berbeza ini. Jadi, apa salahnya kita lupakan yang tidak baik, ambil yang baik. Mereka juga manusia, tak gitu?. Mungkin yang berbeza ini cuba menghidupkan atau mencipta sesuatu yang berbeza, kalau ianya baik dan bermanfaat, tak salah bukan?.

Aku ada azam sebenarnya. Aku mahu buktikan yang faham itu lebih bagus daripada ingat, mungkin bukan pada dunia, skurang-kurangnya pada diri aku sendiri. Bukan apa, aku tak gemar melihat orang mencapai markah yang tinggi tapi sebenarnya kosong, zero, tiada apa2. Mungkin jika kamu masih ingat dan faham kate2 Dr. kausar yang mafhumnya: ramai student graduate dengan certificatenya penuh dengan As tetapi apelah gunenye sekiranya semuanya bernilai ASS... fikir-fikirkan

Okama

2009-01-15T10:58:00.006+08:00

Never heard of OKAMA?? It's not strange though because it is Japanese word for transvestite or in Malay, Mak Nyah, lelaki lembut or whatever you want to call them. If he is born as he is, it doesn't bother me. He is who he is. However i'm bothered if they do something which will risk their life. for example, taking CONTRACEPTIVE PILL to improve their look. The pill i'm referring here is not contraceptive pill which is exclusive for men (still under research), but the pill is meant for women. Cannot believe what you read? Yes it happened, right in front of my eyes.

It happened 2 years ago when I was working as clinic assistant somewhere in Selangor. A woman/man came and asked for the pill. The dispenser there without further question just handed over the pill to her/him (contraceptive pill is actually prescribed only medicine, however in Malaysia one can buy them without prescription). Needless to say, there is no proper record of buying process in private clinic. The Okama even proudly announced that he/she takes 5 different contraceptive pills per day. Can you imagine?? .

I know what the okama wants from the pill is the hormones, estrogen and progestrone which are responsible for women's figure. In fact, there are some advantages of the pill which are

regulate menstrual cycle (ps: if you menstruate)
reduce premenstrual syndrome (ps: if you menstruate)
decrease anemia (ps: if you mestruate)
reduce ovarian cyst (pss: if you have ovary)
protect pelvis inflamatory disease (psss: if you have fallopian tube and uterus)
improve acne (if you have acne, but better take topical one instead of the pill)

However too much hormones is not good. The risk of taking the pill are

breast cancer and prostate cancer
heart attack
increase blood pressure
migrain and stroke
venous throboembolism (blood clots)

I understand you want to look good but choose the other methods than the invasive one. Think before you put anything in your mouth.

Geez, Are you even human?

2009-01-12T14:37:00.016+08:00

Just got an email, so i post part of it:

Don't know what to say, just pray for the destruction of the Zeonis and Israel.

what we can do:

1) Menderma secara berterusan (secara individu/berkelompok)

2) Membaca Qunut Nazilah (di pejabat/surau/di rumah dll)

3) Berdoa

4) Memboikot sedaya mungkin apa sahaja barangan yang ada kaitan dengan Amerika dan koncon-konconya spt rokok, KFC, Starbuck dan sebagainya.

Semoga istiqamah..

Geeeezzzzzzzzz

Anniversary

2009-01-02T15:53:00.006+08:00

Hurm..today is 2/1/2009, exactly a year after an incident happens in my life. I don't know whether I should celebrate it or I should grieve on it. Yes, I gain freedom but still I lose someone. I believe, whatever happens, there is 'hikmah' behind it. Usually whenever something happens, I will just let it be or in mandarin - suan le. I refuse to look behind, since it is useless and nobody can undo it. Just look forward and be alert for what's coming. Choose your path wisely and make the right decision, so you won't regret after that. Of course when you consider the choices, you will look at the benefits you will get, but don't forget the losses you will have. Maybe the losses will overweigh the benefits and think whether the decision worth the losses. Just remember, sometimes, you cannot have both or more in one time or you will lose all of them.
As malay saying says ,'yang dikejar tak dapat, yang dikendong berciciran'.

enteric coated

2008-12-30T20:24:00.005+08:00

Enteric Coated tablet seperti mana yang diketahui oleh pelajar farmasi adalah tablet yang mana disalut supaya tidak dihadam di perut tetapi hadam di usus untuk mengelakkan ubat itu dimusnahkan oleh gastrik jus. (susahnya nak terjemah dalam bahasa Malaysia). Di sini ingin aku ceritakan kisah adikku yang ada kena-mengena dengan enteric coated tablet ni.

Sejak 3 tahun yang lepas, adik bongsuku yang mengalami down syndrome mengalami perubahan tingkah laku yang amat ketara. Cikgunya memberitahu aku yang mungkin adikku mengalami autism iaitu kecenderungan seseorang untuk tinggal dalam dunianya sendiri dan gagal berhubung dengan dunia luar.

Antara perubahan tersebut adalah ketawa sorang2 dan tanpa sebab, perbuatan yang berulang-ulang dan kadangkala hyperaktif. Tetapi perubahan yang paling ketara adalah apabila dia mengalami stress selalunya disebabkan perkara yang remeh seperti lama menunggu aku membeli-belah, lama menunggu pesanan makanan sampai dan tidak dapat apa yang diingini seperti KFC dia akan terkena sesuatu simptom yang aku sendiri sukar nak jelaskan. Apa yang boleh aku gambarkan adalah matanya kelihatan tidak fokus dan dia tidak dapat berkomunikasi dengan keadaan sekeliling. Selalunya dia akan kembali normal selepas bangun daripada tidur. dan oleh kerana itu, ibuku terpaksa menggunakan Diazepam Desitin supaya dia cepat tidur. Kami sekeluarga menggelar simptom itu sebagai 'sawan' kerana tidak tahu terminologi yang lebih sesuai.

Namun apabila dibawa ke hospital, doktor telah menggunakan MRI scan ataupun CT scan ( aku tidak pasti yang mana satu) untuk mengesan adakah adik aku mengalami sawan. Tetapi keputusannya adalah negatif. Semenjak daripada itu, doktor membekalkan pelbagai jenis ubat-ubatan untuk adikku itu, antaranya adalah Risperdal dan Epilim.

Balik kepada topik asal, apa yang mahu aku sampaikan adalah tentang Epilim. Menurut MIMS, Epilim adalah ubat untuk general epilepsi, separa epilepsi dan bipolar disorder. Disebabkan payah nak terjemahkan, aku sambung dengan bahasa inggerislah.

Epilim is available in form of enteric and chrono tablet and must be swallowed whole, not be chewed or crushed.

Disinilah bermulanya segala persoalan kerana arahan doktor tersebut adalah makan separuh daripada tablet tersebut, dimana tablet ungu itu harus dibelah separuh dan padaku ini akan menghilangkan fungsi enteric coated pada tablet itu. Setelah belajar tentang enteric coated tablet, aku berasa pelik dengan arahan doktor tersebut dan pergi berbincang dengan lecturer yang mahir dengan dosage design. Dia telah mengesahkan keraguan aku dan katanya tiada sebarang pharmacology activity berlaku kerana kandungan tablet itu telah dihadam di dalam perut. Maka maksudnya, sia-sialah adikku menelan ubat siang dan malam dan membazirlah duit petrol ibuku berulang-alik dari rumah ke hospital. maka disini aku menyalahkan doktor yang tidak tahu bagaimana ubat bertindak di dalam badan dan juga pharmacist yang tidak menasihatkan doktor tersebut.

Jadi kesimpulannya, seorang doktor itu haruslah prihatin tentang dosage design yang ada di hospital tersebut. Dan ini juga bermakna peranan pharmacist adalah sangat penting. Kedua-dua entiti ini haruslah bekerjasama supaya objektif medication itu tercapai. Sudah-sudahlah bertelagah tentang siapa yang memainkan peranan yang lebih penting kerana tanpa salah satu daripada dua profesion tersebut, pincanglah health care system. Serahkan saja pada yang pakar, kan senang.

Inilah epilim yang adik aku telan hari-hari sampai sekarang

Malu weh

2008-12-27T19:48:00.011+08:00

Sempena krismas baru-baru ni, aku teringat satu pengalaman aku waktu belajar di matric UIA PJ. Disebabkan aku belajar subjek 'Religions in Malaysia', aku dan beberapa member yang lain telah terpilih untuk pergi melawat gereja. Menggunakan link yang ade, aku telah mendapat kebenaran untuk melawat Saint Xavier's Church yang lokasinya dekat je dengan UIA PJ tu. Sepanjang lawatan aku ke sana, parish priest di situ dengan baiknya memperkenalkan aku dengan seorang brother yang akan mengusher kitorang. Disebabkan brother ni orang sabah dan belajar di Indonesia, die bolehla bertutur Bahasa Malaysia = Bahasa Melayu dengan baik. Legala jugak waktu tu sebabnya aku memang kureng Bahasa Inggeris nih. Banyakla perkara baru yang aku belajar kat sana. Pengunjung-pengunjung gereja tu pula sangatlah over peramah. Aku terpikir kalaula orang islam dan masjid punya sikap mesra pelanggan camni, kan bagus.

Waktu tu, aku berpeluang tengok ritual-ritual keagamaan mereka ataupun dipanggil sacraments iaitu mass di mana dalam ritual ni, roti akan dicelup ke dalam wain mewakili daging dan darah Jesus. Ritual lain yang aku tengok adalah baptism dan confirmation.

Lepas tengok semua tu, brother ni pun cerita la 1 peristiwa di Rom tentang Eucarist ataupun Mass di mana roti dan wain tersebut betul-betul bertukar menjadi daging dan darah dan sampai sekarang masih disimpan dalam muzium kat sana. Yang kelakarnya, brother ni cerita pulak yang darah tersebut apabila dicek, keputusannya adalah darah jenis AB.
Dia pula dengan yakinnya bertanya kat aku, "takde kan darah manusia jenis AB?".
Aku pun senyum jela. Nak jawab ade, takut memalukan die, nak kate takde bagi ajaran palsu la pulak. Hehe, dilema aku sebentar.

Jadi kesimpulannya, walaupun kite nak impress orang lain dengan cerita kita, fakta mesti betul, logik dan scientifically tepat. Kalau kite main tibai je cerita kat orang lain, tak ke malu. Bukan kite je yang malu, agama sendiri pun kene tempias sekali.

Lagi satu kalau kite nak goreng sekali pun, tengok target jugak. Kalau target tu budak sains, tak payahla goreng pasal sains, goreng la pasal benda lain.

Ape pun, aku sebenarnya amatla berterime kasih pada yang terlibat waktu tu. Kalau takde diorang, tak siap kerja kursus aku tuh.

Roti dan wain yang disebut2. 1st time tgk roti tu aku ingatkan gabus

Baby ini sedang dibaptize dengan holy water. Adela terpercik sikit kt aku time amik gambar ni. Tp aku still Muslim ok.

Tanda-tanda

2008-12-25T20:02:00.006+08:00

Just read 1 article:

Tanda2 kecil kiamat

penaklukan baitulmuqaddis
zina bermaharajalela
bermaharajalela alat muzik
menghias masjid dan membanggakannya
muncul kekejian, memutuskan kerabat & hubungan dengan tetangga tidak baik?? - x paham
ramai orang soleh meninggal dunia
orang yang hina dapat kedudukan terhormat
ucapan salam kepada orang yang dikenali sahaja
banyak wanita berpakaian tapi hakikatnya telanjang
bulat sabit kelihatan besar
banyak dusta dan tidak tepat dalam menyampaikan berita
banyak saksi palsu & menyimpan kesaksian yang benar
negara Arab menjadi padang rumput dan sungai

So, bersedia sebelum terlambat

Kasut and I

2008-12-24T00:35:00.007+08:00

Aku memang bermasalah time nak beli kasut. Sebabnya, kat malaysia takde saiz yang lebih kecil dari saiz 4. Maka terpaksela aku keluar dari kedai-kedai kasut tu dengan perasaan kecewa. So, jarangla aku pegi beli n tuka kasut baru. Semua ni menyebabkan aku lebih selesa pakai sandal kalau nak ke mana-mana. Tapi, kat UIA ni wajib pakai kasutla pulak, memang merumitkan keadaan. Aku punyalah pakai stokin tebal biar kasut tak terasa besar tapi tak berkesan jugak. Maka terpaksalah aku bersabar dan melangkah dengan perasaan yang tak best. Ramai jugak yang bagi cadangan suruh aku beli kasut budak2 termasuklah mak aku terutamanya time hari raya. Gila punya sedih.. Ada jugak yang suruh aku letak tisula, kertasla, lagila tak selesa.

Time cuti hari tu aku jumpela 1 kasut ni kat ECM. Aku ingat da cukup kecik, so mak aku pun belikan la untuk aku. Punyala berkobar-kobar aku nak gi kelas dengan kasut baru tu. Tup tup, besar jugak. Haih, hangin betul aku.

So, aku merayu wahai, kilang-kilang kasut kat malaysia ni, tolongla buat kasut saiz 3. Sesungguhnya masih ramai di luar sana yang mempunyai kaki yang lebih kecik dari jangkaan anda. T_T

Kasut Rucini baru aku (touch up sikit)

Kasut yang same

Kasut and I

photographer: rumate aku. terime kasih banyak2

Syhh.. keep it secret.

2008-12-19T21:34:00.006+08:00

Today i read this:

Poligami tanpa izin isteri

My opinion:

Yes, it is man's right to marry more than 1 provided that you are 'mampu' enough. But think again are you really that 'mampu'. 'Mampu' is not just about money but also time and many other things. If you are not sure better not because many other bad and worse consequenses may happen just because you have made wrong decision. And sometimes, only the wife knows how 'mampu' the husband is. I'm not merely talking about this because i'm a woman but also because i'm a daughter. I also asked someone about 'poligami sorok2', and the answer is The Prophet never marry the others without telling his wives. So if you say you are following sunnah, follow them completely not just parts of those. And i do think because you do not follow the prophet's way, that's why divorce happens after polygamy and why some women choose to die instead of 'dimadukan', read this. Sometimes you might want to think the other parties' feeling and put yourself in their shoes and you might see things differently.

For you to ponder:

“Dan jika kamu takut tidak dapat berlaku adil terhadap perempuan yatim apabila kamu mengahwininya, maka kahwinlah perempuan lain yang kamu senangi, dua, tiga atau empat. Kemudian jika kamu takut tidak akan berlaku adil, maka kahwinlah seorang sahaja. Yang demikian itu adalah lebih baik kepada tidak berbuat aniaya.”. – (Surah an-Nisa, ayat 3)

“Dan kamu sekali-kali tidak akan dapat berlaku adil di antara isteri(mu) walaupun kamu sangat ingin berbuat demikian.” – (Surah an-Nisa, ayat 129).

Erase your sins

2008-12-15T16:01:00.003+08:00

2 days without laptop makes my days so miserable. Don't know what to do I start reading whatever books I found in my room. And suddenly I felt the urge to read a Fardhu Ain book, the book that almost people just take for granted including myself. And 1 part that I read is this:

Cara-cara menghapuskan dosa

1. taubat dengan ikhlas (taubat nasuhah)
2. dengan mengerjakan amalan-amalan baik
3. dengan memperbanyakkan sedekah
4. dengan ditimpa dengan beberapa musibah

As human we cannot escape from committing sins since human differs from the angles who always obey Allah but we human also differs from the devils who always disobey Allah. thus, bertaubatlah sebelum terlambat.. kerana pintu taubat itu sentiasa terbuka bagi sesiapa yang betul2 ingin kembali ke jalan yang benar selagi hayat dikandung badan.

reference: Asas-Asas Fardu Ain
Ustaz Sulaiman Endut

LEMBAP betul

2008-12-05T00:08:00.004+08:00

Monsun timur laut yang melanda pantai timur menyebabkan hujan turun dengan tidak henti-henti. Ini mengakibatkan banyak kawasan dilanda banjir termasuklah kawasan tempat tinggal aku di terengganu. Menurut ibuku, sudah berpuluh tahun banjir sebegitu tidak berlaku. Mujurlah aku tinggal di kawasan pantai di mana air bertakung diserap semula oleh pasir dengan jayanya. Namun, tidak semua bertuah seperti aku. Ada rumah yang masih dibanjiri air dan lantas merosakkan landskap rumah, perabot dan juga kenderaan mereka. Semua ini menyebabkan suasana dan persekitaran yang LEMBAP dirasai.

Dakwa penduduk setempat, banjir berlaku kerana kerja-kerja meluaskan lapangan terbang berdekatan yang menyekat laluan air. Ini menyebakan banjir berlaku di tempat yang tidak diduga dan telah menyebabkan orang atasan mengambil tindakan mengorek tanah untuk membuat parit untuk laluan air. Maka aku berkata "LEMBAP betul. dah abis banjir baru nak korek." Macam biasa, sudah terhantuk baru terngadah.

Aku juga mahu merujuk perkataan LEMBAP ini kepada orang yang buat rumah aku. Walaupun aku amat berterima kasih kepada beliau kerana membuat rumah aku, tapi aku harus akui memang LEMBAP dia buat kerja. Pada perkiraan aku, rumah aku takkan siap Disember ini. Bilalah aku nak merasa duduk di rumah baru.

LEMBAP juga boleh didefinisikan untuk seseorang yang agak lambat 'pick up'. Selalunya khalayak akan mengata orang tersebut "LEMBAP ar ko ni".

Kesimpulannya, suasana LEMBAP memang tidak selesa langsung.

Kucing

2008-11-29T15:51:00.006+08:00

Aku sangat suka kucing. Kucing sangat comel. Kucing ada macam-macam kaler, oren, putih hitam dan berbagai-bagai lagi. Kucing suka geselkan diri kat kaki orang kerana banyak faktor. Faktor utama ialah kerana nak mintak makanan. Bila aku usap-usap badan kucing, dia pun mengiau tak henti-henti dan mula nak bermanja-manja. Aku nak sangat bela kucing tapi aku takut Toxoplasma Gondii. Jadi aku pun ragu-ragu nak bela kucing atau tidak. Tapi aku sangat sangat suka kat kucing.

Namun, beberapa hari yang lepas, satu tragedi berlaku yang menyebabkan aku bulat hati tidak hendak bela kucing. tragedi itu juga menyebabkan aku bengang dengan kucing. Rasa nak dera-dera je kucing-kucing itu. warghhh, geramnya aku dengan kucing-kucing itu....

cuba teka siapa aku??

Question: Does Hospital Work Suck?

2008-11-26T20:13:00.001+08:00

Ever since I enroll in the world of pharmacy, I've been hearing so many things which are most likely not so good to hear. I've been questioning myself am I choosing the right carrier? is there any future in pharmacy field? how much further can I go after this? since I'm interested in working in hospital, I've become more worried as I learn the relationship between pharmacist and physician is not so good. so I've been thinking more and more and it bothers me actually. and one day I asked a pharmacist who is also a blogger this question:

Amal:

hi mark, i'm pharmacy student in a local university. after reading your blog,i feel like i have to reconsider my future planning since i have decided to work in hospital. is it really that bad? what would you suggest?

and this is his answer:

"Dear Amal (the commenter),

Yes, working in a hospital is hard and it's challenging. But is it bad? I don't think so. However, I do believe that working in a hospital means that you're going to have to constantly prove to other medical professionals ( I actually mean doctors here) that you are worth your paycheck and that you know your stuff. This is especially so if you intend to work in the wards where till today, other medical professionals still question our presence there and question the extent of our contributions. You will not have the luxury of faith and trust initially resulting in you having to print out several journals just to prove that you are right. You won't have the luxury of making a mistake as it will shatter your professional image. Lastly, you will have to prove that you actually do bring something useful to the healthcare team effort that's unique to your profession.

If you're not bothered to go through all that or if the thought of having your actions questioned and scrutinized all the time, then YES, working in the hospital in a clinical position sucks ass. But if you're up for a challenge, have a real need to prove you're better than the rest, desire to develop yourself professionally and sincerely believe 100% that the patient will be much better off with your contribution, then you will find that working in this position is the best thing in the world (perhaps second only to good Scottish whiskey). We are in dire need of pharmacists who can hold their own ground and raise the profile of our profession through deeds and not mere words.

I would suggest that you do a thorough search on the different fields of pharmacy, study them, speak to people that are in those positions and consider your own ambitions. Do look into possibilities such as working with the enforcement unit, with the National Pharmaceutical Control Bureau and with institutions like the Clinical Research Centre and the Institute of Medical Research.

The catch however, is this:

You never really know how much you like or hate a job if you've never actually done it.

As a conclusion, I'd say take advantage of the Internet and search for all the information you need. It's never to early to make a plan about what you might be interested in especially since pharmacists have the whole world open to them."

and so he said...

well, it takes time actually to choose and make decision. What always goes in my mind is that you should try your best in whatever field you are. hopefully this will calm my heart even for a while..

Vacation and I

2008-11-20T02:44:00.007+08:00

As end semester vacation begins, everybody will normally go back to their home, enjoying the vacation with their family, but where am I?? Several people asked me what I'm doing on this vacation. My answer arises another questions as I choose to stay in UIA kuantan instead of going back home. why is that so?? There are many reasons actually, one of them is my new home is still under construction. I can't wait to see how my house will look like and how I'm going to decorate my new room. Hopefully, i can start moving in by this December. This picture was taken 1 month ago and i don't know how it looks like now. My mom told me that the roof, walls, ceiling and floor are already finished but no windows yet. I think I'm going to drop by on the way back from Kelantan to see the progress myself.

But, it is really boring being alone in this small compartment and I have already finished watching House M.D. till season4 and Heroes season 1. And right now I'm already craved for another Heroes series. Medic students envy me for having so much time to be wasted. well, it's holiday...

Tahu versus Ingat

2008-11-09T23:34:00.004+08:00

Sekadar gambar hiasan

Bile tiba masa exam, ramai la sahabat2 seperjuangan merungut "tak ingat", "blank la time exam", "da bace, tp tak ingat langsung", "macam mane ni susah la nk ingat", ade pulak yang hafal sebijik-sebijik macam dalam slide, siap ngan turutan yang tepat lagi jitu. Bile tanye, tak tau pun ape bende yang dia hafal tu. aku memang tak boleh nak hafal, so kadang2 ade la problem sikit2 (dan kadangkala banyak) masa menjawab soalan exam.

Bila dengar rungutan2 tu, aku teringat perbualan aku ngan sorang pensyarah aku, seorang doktor yang juga seorang pharamacologist. Aku mengadu yang walaupun aku dah baca sebelum lecture dan selepas lecture, dan baca lagi sebelum exam, siap buat mind map, still time exam lupa jugak. apa kes??

Doktor tu pun kate: "yang kamu ingat buat ape?? memang la kamu lupe... kalau kamu tahu dan faham kamu takkan lupe.. sebab tu la saya tak bagi slide powerpoint saye, kalau tak, memang sebijik jawapan kamu dengan slide saya."
Haha, terkedu dibuatnye. Mana taknye bile dapat je slide lecturer memang tak buke buku dah. Rujuk slide je la..

So aku pun berazam tak nak bergantung kt slide lecturer semate-mate, cari info dari sources lain jgk. Tp hakikatnya memang susah la jugak, yelah banyak kene korbankan, mase dan tenaga nak pegi library.

Cakap pasal library, aku teringat doktor ni pun pernah cakap: library kita ni kosong manjang, tak pernah saya tengok kat universiti mane2 untuk undergraduate program library takde student kecuali time exam. pelik2..

So, azam ke2 aku, nk jadi pengunjung setia library, moga2 aku istiqamah la pasni...

Jadi, kate azimat yang aku dapat simpulkan:

"Kalau aku ingat aku akan lupe,
Tp kalu aku tahu dan aku faham aku takkan tak tahu dan takkan tak faham"

Ark.. susahnya nak realisasikan.....

Detektif Conan Vol. 62

2008-11-09T04:04:00.003+08:00

Jumaat lepas 7 Nov 2008, ketika berjalan-jalan di megamal sebaik saje habis periksa pathology, sudah menjadi kewajipan bagi aku untuk menjenguk kedai-kedai buku dan termasuklah kedai komik. Maka terpandanglah aku pada komik Detektif Conan terbaru versi bahasa melayu yang dah lame aku nanti-nantikan. Aku pun teruslah beli dan bace mase tu juga. Sampai bilik je aku pun ulang sekali lagi dan mengulang lagi keesokan harinye. Khatam banyak kali pun memang takkan puas kalau bace komik.

Terdapat 3 kes dalam komik Vol. 62 ni. Kes pertama merupakan sambungan kepada vol. 61 di mana seorang lelaki dituduh membunuh majikannya padahal kawan dia yang bunuh. Tapi macam biasa Conan dapat selesaikan lebih awal lagi.

Kes ke2 memang syok habis dan aku suka sangat bila mana Conan tersilap makan ubat demam yang diberi oleh Prof. Agasa yang sebenarnya antidote untuk dadah APTX 4869 yang masih dalam peringkat percubaan dan mengalami perubahan fizikal semula kepada Shinich Kudou. Memang kalut habis, dan bertambah kalut lagi apabila Shinichi hilang dan muncul semula tapi dia dah mengalami hilang ingatan dan menjadi suspek utama cubaan bunuh. Aik, apa dah jadi... wahaha memang gila suspens...

Kes ketiga masih belum habis, hanya menceritakan seorang lelaki yang mati memandu kereta??Bila dan bagaimana mangsa dibunuh??

Tak sabarnya aku nak bace komik seterusnya.. memang sugoi..

p.s: aku menyampah tengok laki2 muslim yang merayap-rayap di supermarket2 walaupun jam tangan ataupun jam kt hp jelas menunjukkan sembahyang Jumaat dah bermula... ramai sungguh orang islam tak sembahyang rupanye.

Rain → Autism??

2008-11-05T03:50:00.002+08:00

Autism linked with rainfall in study

http://www.flickr.com/photos/heatherica/112206272/

according to Yahoo! News

"Doctors agree there is a genetic component to autism. They also theorize that something in the environment and possibly conditions in the womb can trigger the condition.

The researchers said their study supports this idea.

Perhaps infants and toddlers are kept are kept indoors in front of the TV more in rainy climates, and that somehow causes brain changes, they said. Or perhaps they breathe in more harmful chemicals while indoors.

Vitamin D deficiency caused by insufficient time in the sun might also be a trigger, they said."

Read the rest here

US news: Consumer group asks government to ban Avandia

2008-11-01T18:06:00.005+08:00

"WASHINGTON – The government should ban the diabetes drug Avandia because of a wide variety of life-threatening risks, including heart and liver damage, a consumer group said Thursday.

The consumer group, Public Citizen, filed a petition with the Food and Drug Administration to have Avandia taken off the market.

It was the second setback in as many weeks for the GlaxoSmithKline medication, which at one time had shown great promise in reducing the blood sugar levels of people with Type 2 diabetes. Last week, the American Diabetes Association and a European counterpart jointly released updated treatment guidelines for doctors that pointedly recommended against using Avandia.
"The FDA is in possession of clear, unequivocal evidence that (Avandia) causes a wide variety of toxicities," Public Citizen said in its petition. "Many of these are life-threatening, such as heart attacks, heart failure (and) liver failure."

The FDA said it will "carefully review" the petition, and it continues to monitor Avandia's safety record.

Avandia's heart risks were brought to light two years ago in a medical journal article that reported a 43 percent higher risk of heart attacks among Avandia patients when compared with those taking other diabetes drugs. Although scientists are still debating a link between the drug and heart attacks, concerns about the medical evidence led to stronger warnings.
As a result, Avandia use dropped sharply but about a million U.S. patients still take it.
Public Citizen said its own research found 14 cases of liver failure associated with Avandia, 12 of which led to death. The petition also said Avandia predisposes some patients to eye problems, anemia and bone fractures.

Glaxo, in a statement, said it does not believe Avandia causes liver failure. The company said its own data shows the drug has a good safety record when it comes to liver problems. The company said the data on heart attacks is inconclusive and that Avandia is safe and effective, when used according to directions. Glaxo shares initially fell on the news, but later rose to close at $37.90, up 1.6 percent."

Taken from http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20081030/ap_on_he_me/diabetes_drug;_ylt=Aq2YKu26_LrcbfeP6YQy7vys0NUE

Down syndrom & Autism

2008-08-23T02:18:00.004+08:00

Some might have heard what down syndrome is, but i bet only few of you know what autism is. I have met many children with both conditions and perhaps my little brother is also one of them. One might say that down syndrome and autism are very closely related to each other.

Down Syndrome

caused by the presence of extra 21st chromosome
characterized by a combination of major and minor differences in structure with some impairment of cognitive physical growth as well as facial appearance.
estimated at 1 per 800 to 1,000 births
heavily influenced by the age of the mother. Other factors may also play a role
common physical features:

single transverse palmar crease
an almond shape to the eyes
shorter limb
poor muscle tone

a larger than normal space between the big and second toes
protruding tongue.

higher risk for

congenital heart defects
gastroesophageal reflux disease
recurrent ear infection
obstructive sleep apnea
thyroid dysfunction

Autism

brain development disorder that impairs social interaction and communication
causes restricted and repetitive disorder
affects many parts of the brain - poorly understood
There is no known cure
repetitive behavior

stereotypy - purposeless movement
compulsive behavior
ritualistic behavior
sameness
restricted behavior

others

sleep problems

difficulty in falling asleep
frequent nocturnal awakenings
early morning awakenings

From experience and observation, I can say that these children are lacking the attention from those around them. From many cases I encountered, these children are exhaustedly seeking attention from people surrounding especially their parents as the parents too much frequently tend to ignore these very special children. We as a normal and healthy person should play our role and support them. We should be more sensitive and open our heart wide enough so that their message reach the target within us.

reference: wikipedia

I planned to add some pictures, but due to too slow internet connection, i cannot upload them, maybe later.

test.. test..

2008-06-26T13:39:00.002+08:00

Well, I officially launch my very first blog. what I'm gonna write? what i can think rite now is all about manga and anime since i am truly a manga n anime maniac. My life won't complete without them. Well then, that's all for this time. chow n dozo yoroshiku, minna..